Trust?

I love this picture of Bella. SHe looks a little nervous but you can see she is trying to understand the whole dynamics of this horse ride. It made me think of the topic I used for this page. TRUST. We are born with it.. but when do we learn NOT to trust? I know.. what a deep subject. YET one that has been on my mind. I want Bella to know TRUST. I want her to face life head on kickin' and screamin'
I want her to TRUST that life is kinda rough but TRUST that it will be ok. No matter what.
I used the scrapworks line called Formal affair. On this. Along with that snazzy little making memories journaling book. I tell ya I have enjoyed that little book so much. It really helps when your like me and can't write worth a flip, It has the little lines to kinda go by.
I used the Tim Holtz Grunge board on it since it had that westerny horsey kinda feel to it. Dont you just love that stuff!!!
I put 4 arrow photo turns in case I dont notice the 4 I put on the side and put it in the wrong album. I always put something on the page to let me know how old she is in the photo. Not sure if yall have ever noticed that or not.

The journaling reads as follows:
Sometimes, no matter how hard life seems, Even when it may be unfair. You have to dig in your heels, hang on to the saddle and just go with the ride. When it is over you may look back and see just how strong you truly are.
love, Mommy

I hope Some day Bella will read this and really take note of it. That yeah life sucks but just dig in hold on and keep goin'

Hope you all have a wonderful day :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELLA!!!

Today is my little bugs birthday! SHe is the big 5 years old.
She took cupcakes to school today to share with her class. she was sooo excited. Her party is going to be on Saturday but had a mini party at her school today.

She has invited everyone she sees to her party on Saturday, Including the staff at Wal-mart, everyone at her school and a few others that were probably reached by phone. She is so excited to be FIVE. She got a big ol box in the mail from Grandma that had some Hannah Montana stuff including a wig (yeah it has been hysterical to play with John looks especially groovy in it HI HONEY!!) hehehehe

I still find it hard to believe she is already five. Seems she was born yesterday. wow how time flies.
In honor of her birthday we will have her favorite meal of "bughsketti" (spaghetti) for supper tonight.
Not like we dont eat that all the time but ... Its her birthday so bughsketti it is.
I think she is gonna be celebrating for several weeks to come. This week I know she is. If we can keep her contained until Saturday we will have accomplished something.
Id like to thank her teacher for sending that blow out horn home with her too, GRRRR, hahahaha

So here is to Bella bug turning Five. I can't wait to see what this year has in store.

Spring Break

Bella had been experiencing her first spring break. SHe loudly announced to us on Sunday evening that she was gonna have the "Best spring break EVAH" so we both looked at each other and said "ok" wondering what that was supposed to mean.
I wasnt sure if she thought maybe it would be like Christmas and be this grand holiday with a parade or something. So I explained to her Spring Break just means you don't go to school next week, You will stay home with Mommy.
Daddy is taking vacation from work, so we will all be at home. SHe jumps up and does a jig... hmmm. Ok (note to self when she becomes a teenager and doesn't want to be seen with us show her this post!!)
SO anyway she has been home all week. I asked her earlier today how her "spring break" was going. Was it the best ever? she said it was pretty good. BUT, Its not over yet she reminded me.
SO I guess tomorrow better stack up to all the other days.

John got her groovy swing set put together and she has put some milage on it so far. She has been an outside lovin' kid all week.
She has been playing on this swing set since before he got it finished put together haha.
She has made sure all of her toys were introduced to it and they got to take a nap in the "club house" on the top.

SHe has helped her daddy pressure wash the house and shed, Paint the outside of the house and shed, and also picked out ALL the accessories we need for her birthday party on the 26th. SHE QUICKLY reminded me that her birthday was before then but we were just gonna have her PARTY on that day.
(as to not confuse me into not getting her an extra present) I explained to her that the big old cool ginormous swing set was her gift, she said OH. Well maybe we will just eat cake. so I think the deal is set.

I had to go on Wednesday to have my tests done. The Evoked response tests also known as "HUMAN TORTURE" and all for the nice round figure of 399.49 cents.
Im sure it cost alot more than that but oh my lord. They could definitly find out anything they had wanted to know if I had the answers with that test IM telling ya! SO needless to say that blew Wednesday for me. I tell ya I do not understand why some of these tests are like the medication... worse than what is originally wrong with you in the first place. IF something WASN'T wrong with you... there will be when they are done I promise you.
I felt really bad for the lady in the next curtain because if she was next..... she was already praying before I left out of there.
I got home and took a LOOOOOOOOONG nap. I was still nauseaus that night. I have been alternating frozen vegetables On my shoulder and arm where she tried to electricute me.
JOhn was so sweet and got me my most favorite thing ever, Uncle bucks beef and cheese with no mushrooms stromboli with the garlic sauce only he forgot the garlic sauce, I was so hungry though I didnt care, it was still good. I scarfed it down. I was about to starve.
wrong move...
sooo this morning I got up still nauseas and had muscle spasms in my arm and neck (where she shot the power of a car battery through my neck shoulder and arm). Took my medicine, Grabbed more frozen veggies out of the freezer and went back to bed.....so there went Thursday also.

IM DONE WITH TESTS THOUGH and don't have to go back to the dr till May 6th which I KNOW isnt far but does sound like a long time off. Just let my brain think that for a little longer anyway. This will be the Rheumatology appt. to decide if this is Lupus doing all this crapp or could it be MS. SO... Im at the point of WHO CARES just fix it.... exhausted tired of tests... tired of feelin like crapp..
so John and Bella have been on their own pretty much. Bella came in tonight and she was SOOOOOOOOOO dirty when she took off her clothes for bathtime, it looked like she still had clothes ON. yeah pretty dirty indeed.SHe has been outside with him step for step so I TOLD HER if I can move tomorrow we would make some cards/thank you notes for her birthday presents she has gotten so far.But if mama still feels crappy we will try our best to do them before the weekend is up. Hopefully we can get that done before the weekend is out. I am really tryin' to drive that home with her that she is to say THANK YOU and write a thank you card when she receives a gift.

I did do some scrapping on Monday I think it was it might have been saturday..I have my days so mixed up now I honestly have no clue when I made this page but it ws recently.
This is Bella and her "boy" Braydan. They are just the cutest things. They don't really have the concept of boy friend girlfriend (THANK GOD) yet but they are best friends and want to play all the time. I asked Bella if Braydan was her boy friend or just a friend that was a boy and she said MAMA isnt that THE SAME THINGG! no foolin her huh?


OH before I forget. I ALSO wanted to let you know Tracy got in a ton of new product in her store at Treasures to Scrap. Yall know IM all about good deals and if you can get the same product( love elsie, Bo Bunny, Fancy Pants, KI Lace Paper, Cosmo Cricket) every one else gets at regular price for a discount.. THEN IM ALL OVER IT! so go check out what she got. EVERYthing EVERYday is 35% below retail. no foolin, it really is. If you have a request for certain product that she doesnt have.. she will do her best to get it also.

I hope everyone has had a great week and that it was the "BEST SPRING BREAK EVAH" for you and yours if you had it ;)

Bella goes International

I had a really good day today. We got Happy mail! One of the pages that is to be published in SCRAPBOOKING MEMORIES The Austrailian magazine that I LOVEEEEEEE! Came today. I am SOOOOO excited and impressed with this magazine. It is full of awesome pages and ideas. Im so used to the American magazines that have alot of ads and not alot of layout in them. This one OMG had a TON OF layouts just pages and pages of JUST layouts. Im so impressed. YES I cant wait to see my other pages in it. Here is the one IM in so you guys (my family I know, My mom especially will go buy tons of copies hahahaa)can see the cover:

The page is shown in the index in teh front of the book and also in the book on page 32 also. JOHNS HAND IS IN THERE rofl. I told him Id make him famous.

hahaha. as if. THis is far from famous but it was a very wonderful happy today, The weather dropped off cold and I have been feelin liek crapp and all blue because I REALLY dont want to do all these tests and all the money we are having to spend. SOmetimes I wonder if it is better not knowing... but I want to be here a long time to see Bella bug grow up so.. .I put on my big girl drawers and go on.

This magazine has 196 pages and A TON OF LAYOUTS IN IT. IM sooo impressed with it. If I didnt have a lifetime subscription to this other magazine I wont say the name of, Id get this one. My mom keeps renewing it for 2 years when they send the little renewal notices. I think I will have that mag till im about 80!!

John got Bellas swing set put together today. It was taking a really long time and John was geting all confused by the numbers. He had written on the boards like the directions said then it just wasnt going together just right... then he noticed... BELLA HAD written some numbers and letters like daddy ON THE OTHER SIDES of them. ROFL sorry hun I had to laugh that was sooo funny but I knwo he was so frustrated.
she is gonna have sooo much fun on that thing. Man I wish i Had one of those when I was a kid!!!

Hope you are having a good week I just had to share my good news with you guys. You can pick up a copy at Borders or a books a million. OR You can always go to their website.

the weekend

I have been scrappin when I have been able to focus. I am almost finished with a mini album. I finished a layout and I had forgotten to post my Di Hickman card sketch card I did last week. Last week was so mentally exhausting. I just was in a daze most of the week. Not hurting so much as having this weakness that feels os weird. Like you have walked a huge marathon how your legs feel all unstable and wonky but I know I havent walked no marathon unless you count from the bed to the bathroom....
ENOUGH whining... IT will work out. I go WEDNESDAY of this week for some test. They are gonna last like 5 hours. They are gonna hook alot of wires to my head to see if I can pick up cable on my eyeballs. I will let ya know how that works out. OH SOME GOOD NEWS! WE got into UAB to the MS specialist. It is not till the end of June but at least we got in. I cannot pronounce his name its alot of vowels. But some that I have talked to have heard of him. That made me feel better. I am still seeing my Rheumatologist on May 6th (lupus dr) so he can decide if he thinks the lesions and deterioration is possibly cns Lupus so they can decide and start treatment this summer. Thank you again for all your prayers. This has been a difficult hurry up and wait that is driving us all crazy. I just would like to be able to focus again and stop this shaking and numbness.

So anyway.. I did scrap.. It is getting better. Im still having troulbe with lines. They will look straight then ughmm they will be so far from straight you cant even call them crooked! They are good fill in pages and great pages for Bellas album but nothing I would consider submitting or using professionally. (if that is what you would even call what I did bwahahaha) Here is a fill-in page I did for Bellas book. I love this picture of her. SHe is such a pistol. She got a big girl bike for Christmas but she hasnt taken to it like she did the trike. I think it is because she doesn't want to wear all the crash gear. They pad these kids now more than demolition derby racers. Its hot and I know that is why she doesnt ride as much. BUT.. she has to wear it. I wouldnt have some of the scars I have if I had worn crash gear growin up. HECK I NEED CRASH GEAR NOW just to walk across the room!!!
I used the new Basic Grey Archaic along with some Basic grey Lucky from an older line. I added the chipboard which is also made by Basic grey. SWEETIE font thats called. The large B is the Basic Grey monograms. I used some assorted Basic Grey buttons. Colorbox inks, Cosmic Cricket ribbon, and Rusty pickle chipboard stars.
You can get all that at the TTS STORE (Treasurestoscrap.com) and at a fraction of the price other places sale it for so head on over. Tell em Bella bug sent ya ha ha.

Here is the card I did last week with my buddy Di's Card sketch.
This is the Reminisce Live out loud line. Has very fun colors. Love this line.

I havn't goten the mini album all ready to upload yet. I will do that in a day or so. IM exhausted. I have been watching the Deadliest catch marathon this weekend. John and Bella were putting her Swing set together she is getting for her Birthday. Well got for her birthday. Have I mentioned she is gonna be 5??? ughhh rips my heart I am tellin ya. She is on Spring Break this week. I think she thinks its a holiday like Christmas. SHe has been running around going "TOMORROW IS SPRING BREAK TOMORROW IS SPRING BREAK!!!" John took this week off since IM still having good and bad days and have my long appt on Wed. He also wants to get some house painting done. Depends on the weather.
He got part of the swing set put together today. He and Bella had a bandaid competition (to see who could come out of it with the most barbie bandaids) I think John is winning bless his heart. I have to say this is a cool swingset. She is gonna have alot of fun with it this summer I hope.
Hope you all have a good week.

EDITED TO ADD DR. VISIT RESULTS

First off I want to thank all of you that have been thinking of us and praying for us. I really do appreciate it. we still don't know a whole lot. It is still a toss up between lupus cns (central nervous system?) and MS. BUT, HE is sending me to Birmingham to a dr at UAB who is the best in the southeast for MS Patients. He is who they send difficult cases to he said. He said he hated to put me on the medication that is 15,000 yes that is THOUSAND a year without them ruling out the lupus causing this. BUT, I tested positive for all the tests they give for MS. I have a Rheumatologist (lupus dr) appt on May 6th for them to look at my tests, and they are tryin to get me into UAB in Birmingham to the MS dude asap.

THe way he explained it to us... my central nervous system, the mylar (?) (I think that is what he called it?) that insulates your nerves... is deteriorating. There is nothing they can do to FIX IT.. but they can slow down the degeneration of it. BUT depending on if the lupus is causing it... that would be a different medication than if it was MS. SO now you know .. what we know. PRetty much not much lol so we are now praying for getting into UAB pretty soon!
I DO KNOW I am exhausted. Physically and mentally so Im gonna go catch a nap.
THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH AGAIN.
love and hugs

Today is the day...

My appt is at 10 am. so Hoping we get good news. I will let yall know what they said when I get home... fingers crossed and praying hard.
in the mean time I tried to scrap some to keep whats left of my brain busy haha.



This is from the Easter Egg Hunt at St Elmo church. BElla had such a great time. IM SOOOOO HAPPY Mrs Gloria invited us. I hated that I was too sick to go. Happy JOhn took lots of Pictures. VERY HAPPY Bella got to go and enjoy herself.

THis is the Basic grey Sultry line. I added an older sheet of Lollipop shoppe that kinda matched it so SEEE IM USING UP MY STASH. making rooom for all the news stuff aren't those little crocheted flowers the cutest? YOu wait when she outgrows those pants... Im sooooo gonna take at least one if not all those off there... I know my mom would flip if she knew I did that but look how stinkin' cute they are and I can put them in her scrapbook and say HEREEE are the flowers that were on those cuteeeee pants grammaw bought you!!! ITS gonna happen you just watch.
These products you can find at the TREASURES TO SCRAP STORE. ANd get this.... THese new basic grey papers... YOU CAN GET THEM 35% cheaper there than ANY PLACE ELSE! so SAVE YOUR MONEY and spend it on scrap stuff that is my motto. Everyone likes a deal so hey... here is a great place to start!!




I will post an edit when I get home to let you know all my test results and what the dr says. Hope you all have a great day.

I got Tagged.

The Six Words memoir.
Here are the rules:
1) Write your own six word memoir
2) Post it on your blog and include a visual illustration if you’d like
3) Link to the person that tagged you in your post, and to the original post if possible so we can track it as it travels across the blogosphere
4) Tag at least five more blogs with links
5) Don’t forget to leave a comment on the tagged blogs with an invitation to play!
OK, here goes:

my pal Angel Tagged me to write my own 6 word Memoir... so ... here goes:

JUST IN CASE TOMORROW NEVER COMES: I know in one way it is kinda morbid to think what tomorrow would be like if you weren't here to see it. On the other hand... do you think about what you want to be your mark.. just in case? I mean I have Bella. She is my heir. she is me carried on. But what about other than that. What mark do we have. I guess that is another reason I scrapbook so much and do so many blog entries. Someday Bella will have the chore or honor not sure which yet of looking back through all of this. Hopefully she will see the love and the heart I put into it. The laughter, the sadness and sometimes loneliness but always honor to be her mom and John's wife. Some people are never content with that. They want to be the bit CEO of some company and want to climb the ladders of success but ya know... this is my success right here. John and Bella are everything in this entire world to me and all that I ever did want. Since I was able to date, all I ever wanted was someone to look at me the way John does. Even on the days when I am so sick and would not think anyone should love me.. he is there. I hope and pray Bella finds someone someday (LONG LONG LONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNG time from now) that looks at her and treats her the way he does me. I am very spoiled and it is mostly his fault. He builds me up to where I need to be on the days I just cant reach it. You all know just how desperately I have always wanted to be a mommy. That dream came true and I love it. Some days I don't feel like a good mommy. I know I never would be the perfect mommy but I think someday when she looks back and knows and sees what we went through for her, To get her here and to stay here to be with her...that is where she knows our love will be. So just in case there is no tomorrow. I hope they know. I pray they know. Im telling them now so they will know. JUST that they are my entire world and every breath I take, every fullness of my heart has their fingerprints all over it and for that I am truly grateful.

SO NOW I TAG: JAN, Tracy, Colette, Cheryl wray, and Lynn

TODAY!!!!

EDITED TO NOTE.. SOrry they just announced that they TAPED IT TODAY.... it wasnt posted today. SORRY. I copied and pasted it from the site but they told them wrong stuff so.. anyway sorry bout that. I will let you know when they have it up for viewing.


LFA Spokesperson Mercedes Yvette and Dr. Gary Gilkeson to Discuss Lupus on ABC News Now on Monday, April 7 at 10:30 a.m. Eastern -
On Monday, April 7 at 10:30 a.m. Eastern time, Mercedes Yvette, Lupus Foundation of America spokesperson and 2004 runner up on America's Next Top Model, and Dr. Gary Gilkeson, chair of the LFA’s Medical-Scientific Advisory Council, will appear on Healthy Life," a regular health segment on ABC News Now.

Mercedes Yvette, who has lupus and who was featured on the Spring 2007 cover of Lupus Now magazine, and Dr. Gilkeson will join Dr. Tim Johnson, the chief medical correspondent for the ABC Television Network, to talk about lupus.

Mercedes will share how lupus has affected her life, and what she is doing as a national spokesperson for the LFA. Dr. Gilkeson will discuss how lupus is diagnosed and treated, and the latest research findings.

Again, the show about lupus will be broadcast live from 10:30 - 11:00 a.m. Eastern time on Monday, April 7. To view it, please visit http://abcnews.go.com/abcnewsnow, and look for "Healthy Life."

ABC News Now is a 24/7 digital cable channel available to more than 34 million users on cable, broadband and on mobile phones.




SO WATCH IT YALL!!!

HURRAY HURRAY its BASIC GREY!

Yes I am just a little tiny bit excited. hehe. Tracy got in the new BASIC GREY in the store and with the every day discount she gives of 35% off, iTs gonna be mine I tell ya, all mine!!! (said in a evil voice) so IF YOU WANT in on it ... you better hurry. She just loaded up the place with my most favorite chipboard letters EVAHHH!
I get emails all the time asking what font that is I am using, and how much they love it. WELL here is your chance. NOT ONLY to get the same letters but to get a screamin' deal on them too! Go ahead and look other places and SEE HOW MUCH THIS STUFF COSTS! yeahhh.. You will be happy your pal Nan here told ya about Treasures To Scrap's discount paper store.
I like to pass along deals I find to my pals and family. Feel free to mention it to your friends as well.
There is also a kickin contest goin on that Cosmo cricket is sponsoring. Check it out: Cosmo Cricket is putting up 300.00 in product as the prize. Yeah so ughmmm. get ya blackboard books out and get to scrappin' my friends.
I would LOVE TO SEE you enter.

Sorry I haven't been updating my blog as much as I ussually do. I am still adjusting to this medication and having spasm issues but, I think it is gonna be ok! THank you all so very very much for all your prayers and emails. I love them and I do thank you so very very much from me and all of my family. Bella is on half days this week they are doing S.A.T.'s in big school. (as she calls it) I have done another layout but it has the kids from her school on it and I don't have permission from all the parents so I haven't posted it. I will get something up though sorry. Thank you all for cheering us on! Without you guys and your prayers and encouragment... I just don't know what we would do. THank you again.
Here is my reason for everything right here!!!

a great surprise today

My bud Simone when she was here, did a video of my scrap room. Well to my surprise she did it all up to music and schtuff (my favorite song by daughtry ughhhmm melt!!) on her blog. GO SEE IT it looks sooo stinkin cool! Thank you Simone Im smiling (crooked but hey im smiling hahahahaha) Love ya tons chick!
check it out HERE

Not a good day....

I had a dr appt this morning and I didnt get good news.
My Gp told me to kinda prepare myself. That I do have lesions on my brain and a postive lumbar puncture. The vasculitis in my brain and that point to what we were hoping not. Multiple sclerosis. The other thing it could be is Lupus nephritis vasculitis which means the lupus has moved to my brain. So. I have an appt, on April 9th that I will get more confirmation and treatment options. I have a new rheumatologist since this one was a nightmare that I will be seeing errrr. first week in May. (its in the kitchen and IM exhausted) Regardless... He told me to prepare myself and whatever questions and alternatives for treatment we can choose. I am not sure what we can do on second opinions (I REALLY DONT WANT TO DO ANOTHER SPINAL TAP) But I did have positive Ana and really high sed rates. I dont know all the counts I didnt write them down I was kinda in a stuper because so many times before they tested me for that and it was always negative. So anyway. that is where we stand right now. I really do appreciate your prayers and thank you so much. I ask right now for you to pray for John and Bella and my family. I think this is alot harder on them than it is on me.
My main concern right now is how this is all gonna effect them.

more pages and a beautiful day

HERE Is another page from Bella's 4-k class trip to the Partridge Plantation. I have about 150 pics so get ready to see plenty of pages on it hahaha. THIS IS FROM my scrapbook Obsessions kit. I LOVE this graphic 45 paper. I tell you if you dont like one side FLIP IT OVER you are sure to like the other. I loved the prima stamp stickers and the ribbon too. I used some STICKLES glitter glue with the template that came with it to make the fleurishes on the top and bottom left. YALL didnt think I DREW THAT NOW DID YA? if so yall are KArazy. Im doing good to scrapbook right now.
haha,
I had another one of those freaky headaches today at the back right side of my head where the round part of your skull is. Freaky. I go back to the dr tomorrow though sIts just my general practitioner though. But still he may have some of the answers. WE have another week or so till we get the test results from the hospital.

Bella John and I set out some marigolds and impatients today in the back yard with Guido's help of course. Mainly Bella did it I assisted. She was so cute. SHe got so mad when guido tried to errr. mark his territory on them. she would fuss at him and tell him to go lay down and stop tt on her plants. I had to laugh she was so funny.
IT is a beautiful day here. The Azaleas are blooming so beautiful. I know enjoy them now they will be gone in a week or so. I LOVE them so much though.

Have you seen the Bazzill paper that you can stitch yet? I know some of you have some may not. It is pre stuck I guess you woudl say with a design so all you do it put the thread through so you can have stitched designs on your pages. IT is pretty cool. HERE is where you can see some of it.

ALMOST FIVE

Have you seen these papers from GRAPHIC 45? I am in love. They were in my kit at scrapbook obsessions this month. I had the best time making this layout with them. They are double sided and yeah I KNOW I KNOW I scream and shout about double sided paper but seriously these papers rock. IF you dont like one side flip it over YOu are sure to like that one. one side is very vintagy the other not so much. just SO PERFECT.
YES IM still on this turning 5 thing I just cannot believe it. SHe is still planning her Birthday party and so happy to be turning 5 as John and I sit here looking at each other thinking if we ignore it will it go away? UGHHH.. no time doesnt work that way but it was worth a shot huh?
SO celebrate it... we will.
Im working on some cards for Di Hickman. My bud. she has her sketch's that IM WAYYYY behind on so I gotta get busy.
Take a look if you need some inspiration :)

catching up...

OK I have all kinda stuff to tell yall about. I know I have been a bad blogger. My mom has been here and then I took my meds really early on sunday to so I wouldnt forget in all the Easter festivities and it made me sick as a dog. so Im just getting up and feeling almost human. Nothing will stay down still though so we are hoping... anyway HERE Is some fun news. We had a chat with our bud Lindsay from Cosmo crcket Friday night, He put out a contest for us. this goes for any of you that want to do it. Here it is:


Create an ALBUM with one of the black board albums by Cosmo Cricket found here

Albums must be made with at least 60% Cosmo Cricket product found hereshe is doing next day shipping so you will have it in plenty of time for the contest.

If there is something that she is out of stock on (it is going FAST!!) She will go to Cosmo Cricket and pick it up ... Email her at sppt@treasurestoscrap.com with what you want her to pick up. She will priority ship for everyone so that you can have the product qucikly.

Albums can be any theme you wish.. show us your creativiy.

Upload your finished album here to the TTS gallery no later than April 15th midnight Central time.

Enter as many albums as you wish but has to be using the Cosmo Cricket Blackboard albums and at least 60% of Cosmo Cricket products. No EXCEPTIONS!!!!!Entries will be judged by the Cosmo Cricket Team...
Winner will recieve more than $300 worth of Cosmo Cricket Product!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you sooooo much Cosmo Cricket Man!!!!! and thank you for the great Chat !!!!

Good Luck everyone and Have fun

Paper and Hybrid Albums encouraged...

YOU MUST BE AN ACTIVE MEMBER OF TTS TO QUALIFY!


Doesn't this sound like fun!!! We had a fun Easter around here. The Easter bunny must have tripped on the toys BElla left out because he dumped his eggs all over the living room. hahahahaa.



She had a great time dyeing Easter eggs. Even though we just use them for potatoe salad... she still loves to dye them I mean come on don't you remember how fun it was dyeing Easter eggs when you were a kid!? I always loved it. Yes we hide the plastic ones now but I have to have the nostalgia of dyeing real eggs still. Every kid and (kid at heart) has to do this. IT's just not Easter without it ya know.

She had a good Easter. she poked us awake before 7 and I went ahead and took my meds so I wouldnt forget. HUGE MISTAKE. I have to take them at hte same time every day NOT EARLY not late. I knew not late but was thinking a little early wouldnt matter. BUT, it was alot more early than I realised...Oh well. John thinks maybe I didnt eat enough with it. Either way I was dog sick.
I laid in the dark most of the day. I got up a little bit but I tried to eat and off we went again. so TOday is first day I have been able to keep anything down and that was some crackers.
Im gonna attempt supper tonight.
I have an appt with my general pract, on Thursday so will ask him about that.

Here are some photos for ya, We didnt get to go to the church service for Easter I'm still not allowed out yet. But we did watch some on tv that were gorgeous. We had to kinda be careful around Bella She didnt understand alot of it and we tried explaining some of it to her. I will get her teacher to help me with that for 4 year olds I know it is really difficult to understand that jesus died for us.
I want her to know the real reason of the holidays not just Easter bunny.. Know what I mean?

I got my package I had ordered today from TTS omgosh IF you dont have one of the big bites let me tell you this thing is COOL as can be. It looks impressive too!
I got crackle paints and stickles and some more cosmo and that Bazzill bling birthstone paper is sooo vibrant I LOVE the ones that are Bellas school colors.

My mom was here this weekend. We all had a good time. .
Hope you all had a very happy Easter and remember the true meaning behind it.
I also would love to see your entrys in the contest. LETS FLOOD THE GALLERY WITH THEM AND MAKE LINDSAY AND JON WORK HAHAHAHA. IM sure he will love me for that one! hehe

ONE month from TODAY

Bella will be 5 years old......
WHAT HAPPENED. WHEN did this happen? I just blinked. You were just born. You were just that teeniny thing that gave me fits in my belly that poked her butt up in my ribs that yes now even 5 years later I have a disfigurative rib cage on that side from YOURRRR BUTT. Thats ok It is a battle wound I pray I keep forever. Do you have any idea how wanted and loved you are little girl? We worked so hard to get you and I REALLY mean that. I will never forget the look on your daddys face when the dr told us I was in remission and if I wanted a baby THIS IS IT. I had a window with being off these medicines to get pregnant with. SO needless to say the "work began" we had been married 5 years and we were so wanting a child. I will never forget when we found out. We were both so happy.
I will never forget his face when You entered the world. He had tears in his eyes but was so excited to see you. IM YOUR DADDY. THIS IS YOUR MOMMY. I dont remember much after that except I wanted to see the feet that kicked the crapp out of me for the last 9 months. you had this look on your face of WHAT? PUT ME BACK I DO NOT LIKE THIS. You kept that look on your face for a while. Your daddy was so protective of you. From the get go. He wouldnt let them take too many pictures because it hurt your eyes. See your daddy taks good care of us .. his girls.
There should never be a question of doubt that you were sent to us and that we had placed that order for you a long time in advance. GOd knew just what he was doing when he made you. YES you are alot of pay back both of us wreaked havok on our sibling and also our parents somewhat. Even though they loved us like we love you. You never know how much you are loved by your parents until you become a parent yourself.
My entire life changed at that moment. I have not regretted it for a second. Even the first year of screaming, the collic, the torrential 2's that followed up with the threes from hell. YOu are a curious and michievious child. (refer back to the payback line) Our lives though are so comeplete now with you in it. IM so glad Im your mommy. But ya know.. I just don't know if Im ready for this FIVE thing yet.
I know you are cause you talk about it all the time HOW YOU WANT TO BE FIVE.
I want to live in four a little while longer. Is it so wrong that I LIKE that you call it a fridgefrader (refigerator) and pannacakes (pancakes), I KNOW I KNOW I should make you say it the right way but just if I HAVE to live with FIVE at least let me have this OK?! You have always had your own language for things. I didn't mind. We knew we were doing this ONE TIME so we basked in every second of it.
I know alot of four was hard on you. Mommy was sick alot. Daddy was having to deal with that. I hate that I missed some things.
I just breaks my heart and just makes me mad at myself for not getting to be at those functions. BUT you have a wonderful daddy little girl do you know that? Your daddy has done it all. He has cooked cleaned taken care of you as well as taken care of me. IF THAT does not show how much he loves us. THen I dont know what does. A man shows the love to his children by how he loves their mommy. so I have to say. He has done a pretty darn good job.WE are very lucky and blessed to have him you know that?
but back to this Five thing. Can we just talk about it a bit more. Can we just not do the FIVE. I dunno why FIVE is so hard for me. Maybe its the tough year we have had. I dunno but I guess it is a sign too you are growing up. You are becoming a kid. A little girl. No more baby. The baby ways are leaving you. Before long you wont want mommy and daddy to do as much with you and we will take that back seat to friends and things. I know that will be here before I know it. Selfish of me yeah but by gosh YOU ARE IT FOR US so we get to be selfish with you. You see those piles of scrapbooks in there. Those are for you. Those are all the moments and the thoughts and the love I have to give you. That is the best way I know to show it. Even when I cant get out and go to those little fun things at school, when IM stuck here I can do that for you and for me. Daddy takes the pictures so I feel I was there. I just wish I could be in teh audience smiling and clapping showing you how proud i am of you.
I am proud of you ya know. So ya know get used to this cause when you turn 6 I will be worse. IM sure 10 wont be so hot either and dont even think about 16 or oh man I cant even say it. so JUST STAY 4 ok. Keep calling it a fridgefrator I dont care if you get counted off for that in school it will be our secret! We will just sit here and eat chocolate and BEJOYCE!

Bella heard a whaaaaaaaat?

Ok when we got these photos back and I was going through them I immediatly thought of this paper. I have hung on to this paper I wasnt sure what I wanted to do with it but I knew something would come up. I was about to go on a gift bag and card making frendsy when this picture appeared. so corny as it may be... I thought it came out ok. Not bad for a sick chick.
I did alot of dimension on it so it would look like the little critters were hidin in the woods and wanting to come out and play with her. I just invisioned them stealing the easter eggs and her going ok this is NOT FUNNY. WHO GOT MY EGGS.
OK MAYBE this is good stuff they have me on after all. hahahaha

The weather is BEAUTIFUL today Bella is outside playing. I took my medicine late this morning so nursed a headache all morning. This afternoon I finally got up and worked on this page and finished it. THe paper is by REMINISCE DESIGNS if you are interested. It really is cute if you have pictures that go. or a kid that loves the jungle.

TONIGHT IS LOST! WHEWHEWWW I can't wait to watch it. My mom is coming tomorrow so I may not be online much then again I might be online more ya never know how that turns out. Depends on how this medicine treats me and her mood.
Bella is ready for some Grammaw time she says!
Ok I need to go take my evening meds cuz I DONT want to do that again oh my heavens!

Pullin' out my pimp hat

OK IM pullin out my pimp hat.
I JUST have to tell you. Tracy at Treasures to scrap GOT some kickin' stuff in yesterday and You guys know cuz I been tellin' yall haha about how her store everything is everyday 35% cheaper than most places. WeLL that INCLUDES her kits. She does these page kits but let me tell ya... YOU CAN GET MORE THAN A PAGE OUT OF THEM. FOR THE MONEY.... IT is the way to go.
she has some KAUUUUUUUTEEEEEEEEEE (pronounced cute but in a nancynese fashion) kits this month I have to tell ya. SO GO check it!

Yall also know we all have been praying for her Daughter and Son in law for a while now. Her son in law has been in bad health for a while now. Well yesterday they got a miracle. you can read about it here THis truly is a blessing.

I also wanted to POINT YOU to the new stuff Tracy has added to the store. SHe has gotten in some kickin stuff. I know my bank account is gonna be depleted from it haha. I have to tell you the Bazzill birthstone blingy cardstock, grungeboard and the crackle paint and the stickles and the clear albums and and ...I can continue If you would like me tooo.. I got a big drool puddle goin here. Last count she had 4 yes FOUR of the big bites left and at 35% off I see why they are selling so fast.

I better quit we got my hospital bill this week and I Could go buy a new car for that one MAYAAAANNN! MRI's need to be on sale I tell ya!

I did get to scrap tonight. I had to. I had to turn off the american idol believe it or not. The flashing lights were bothering me too bad. SO I turned it where I could barely see the picture, I know! I KNOW!! my DAVIDDD!!! But, I could hear him so that is mostly what mattered. ANd I started on a page Im JUST finished it. IT scanned kinda wonky, but you get the general idea, Im going to try to photograph it but with the weather it may be later... IT INVOLVED cosmo cricket yeah IM still playing with my box of Cosmo cricket I got rofl.
I played with ALSO the crackle paints OH MAN I LOVE IT. I did some cool stuff with it and the black board letters I got the vintage ones OH I LOVE THEM!!! Note to self: Tell lindsay On FRIDAY AT 9PM EST (that is 7pm central for all us down south) WHEN WE HAVE OUR CHAT WITH HIM AND THE COSMO CRICKET CREW AT TTS...we need more L's and R's In the letter sets hahahahahaha. Im sure he will love me for that one. I always run out of those letters do you guys do that?
SO I had to make different words but IT worked out. I also used a page in the making memories journaling book (those are sooo cool if you can find them) I made my own scalloped paper out of my cosmo cricket paper. I used my deco scissors cuz Im not too good with the regular scissors and those are more forgiving if you dont cut straight haha. I went over the crackle paint with a colorbox cats eye ink chalk so the crackles would show up good. I LOVE the wooden numbers I have used those forever on layouts. I get them from scrappin freindsy. That is the lss from back home where I grew up (HEY YALL!!!) Some really nice folks over there! I got to move up to the number 5's next (don't start me to cryin')
anyway This is another one of those pages I want Bella to learn something from. To not just "judge a book by its cover" so to speak. That you have to dig sometimes to get to the beauty but everything is beautiful in its own way... why do I hear Ray Stevens singing all of a sudden.... man am I Showing my age or what! I had that record YES RECORD not CD. record on 45 hahaha. Ok completely showed my age there. But anyway I want her to someday realise I was tryin' to tell her something Not just make pages with all these pics ya know?

Ok I need to go, John is probably gonna have a cow or end up putting my face on the back of that milk carton for real when he goes to pick up my photo order but its ALL HIS FAULT he took so many cute pictures at the Platnation that I had to print them. I also am hoping to get to make my mom and his mom a mini album of the cutest ones. FINGERS CROSSED. I feel better can you tell?
SO much scrappin I wanna do.
I will show yall in a bit when I finish this crackly page. Its turnin out good I think even for my flicted self.
Hope yall have a good day.

Partridge Plantation Egg hunt

Bella had a field trip today at school to THE PARTRIDGE PLANTATION. It is really a big nice farm that you can go to and pet the animals and check out the country farm livin'.
They had a big Easter egg hunt and had SOOOOO much fun. John took a kabillion pictures for me, so I wouldn't be as bummed that I couldnt go :) Im still not up to it yet. Hopefully soon :)
I know the family will want to see these. we are NOT gonna get to come home for Easter :( this year which we haven't gone home the last 2 due to health issues and Bella being in different programs with church, school or other functions.
I am glad she has gotten to participate in some egg hunts and things this year. SHe has had a great time. Ok on with the photos. John did a super job as the camera man :)
IM NOT putting them all up.

If you get a chance go look at my sweet blonde child HERE at the Creative Imaginations blog. How cool is that. I wanna thank Cheryl and everyon at C.I. that made my day!. Im printing it out for my mom (she has no computer and no IM not gonna go there rofl) Thank you again.

Easter Egg Hunt

Bella's Teacher Mrs. Gloria invited Bella to come to an Easter egg hunt at her church today. John took her and she had soooo much fun. SHe knew most of the kids there. (they go to her school too) she loved it. Here are some photos he took


I didnt KNOW MY BROTHER Was there!!!! Aint he cute! bwahahahahhaaa









I think they all had a fabulous time!
Bella is supposed to go with her class monday on a field trip for MORE egg huntin' I wanna go sooooo bad and take pictures there is a petting farm there too kinda like back home at the pumpkin patch. I know she is going to have so much fun! Just dont think I can do that yet. Esp with all the flu going around but anyway I know she will love it. So Maybe some of the other moms will send me some of their pics from it. I want John to go but he said he didn't know. so We will see if he has to work or not. maybe just maybe.

I hope you all have a wonderful saturday.