Monday, July 10, 2006
good news/bad news
what do you want first? good news? bad news? Ok good news? ok. WELL good news I have 3 pubs in the last few days. I got freelance designer for scrappychic, I got a magazine pub for scrapstreet magazine and I was notified today I will be in september's hobby lobby magazine. I have to mail the layout in because it has shadows on it when I scan it sooo hubby will do that tomorrow for me. I applied for an amazing design team, scrapper's bliss where I met my friend Jeanne. We both are up for it and I pray at least one of us gets it IT WOULD SO ROCK if both of us got it. I just am not sure if I will cuz there are SOME AMAZING scrappers that are up for it and after looking at the ones that submitted well, Im not gonna hold my breath BUT I SOOOOOO WANT THIS MORE THAN ANYTHING I LOVE that site and MAN ITS ROCKIN! SO I got all my fingers toes and anything else I can cross CROSSED. NOW.... the bad news... DR appt. the suckola part of my day today. I have endometriosis... again well it never goes away it gets better and worse. well He said IT doesnt get much worse than this that the only things I could do was either TRY MY DANGDEST to get pregnant and then have a hysterectomy or to go on and have a hysterectomy and since I had so much trouble with Bella having and carrying her whatever guess what my option is.... which is not all bad news I would be feeling ALOT BETTER and not have all these problems anymore. BUT the down side... you knew it was coming. I have to wait till I pass all these kidney stones before we can do the surgery sooo we are looking to August. NOT FUN so another month of suffering before I can do this. yehaw fun. I have mixed emotions I mean.. this makes it FINAL NO more babies. whatsoever it is permanent I mean once they take it out there aint no puttin it back ya know... that is the part I dont like but I KNOW I KNOW it is for the best. I just hate the finality. I always wanted lots of kids. this just settles it and I know we prayed for one healthy baby and I should not be greedy and ask for another and ANY other child we had would probably have a major complex cuz I woudl have to figure a way to scrapbook their life like I do bellas and MAN that would be a job lolol well I know this is for the best I just have to mourn my female organs for a few minutes and Ill be fine. THE GOOD PART. NO MORE MONTHLY MONSTER yipeee!