and then there were hormones

EVERYTHING today is making me cry. John went to the grocery store and I told him Im having a major chocolate craving so he got me a 6 pack of hershey bars. HE brought me one back to bed and I was like thank you honey and savoured every tiny square one by one. I got up to walk and when I made it down the hall way, saw in the kitchen on the counter the rest of the package.. I just boo hoo'd. John came in said I have a surprise for you Im squalling like a baby I said I know I saw the chocolate (while blowing my nose in tissues) he said yeah but thats not it Im like awww and I cry more what is it? he said IM GOING TO GO GET BUG oh gosh the flood gates erupted I was squalling like a baby. Thank you Thank you Thank you. He was like GEEZ your welcome quit crying already.
His mother is coming back also to wrestle with Bella and spend time with her and us, but they will be in our house so I can still see and hear my kiddo. I missed her sooooooo much. NOW I KNOW in a few days Ill be pulling my hair out wondering what in the world was I thinking. BUT man this house is so huge and so quiet without her. Im a very happy mommy tonight only 3 more hours and they will be here. Im feeling better and stronger each day. really tired but I know that is expected. SO happy I have all of you .. my friends praying for me. Thank you each and every one of you even the ones that don't know that I know that you are here... Thank you I miss you so much and it means more to me than you will ever in your life know. Well my ss class is droppin by tonight so I guess I need to get in the shower and brush my tooth.. get it..tooth hahaha ok maybe the meds havent worn off all the way yet forgive me. I am anxious to get well and get back to church and scrappin and chic fil a days. Bella will start back to school soon so we wont have our girls days that much but we will have to sneak some in. Ballet starts soon too! YIKES John is still wanting her to take karate I want her to take ballet she wants to do both karate ballerina... I can see it now.

Missin my bug

One thing I didn't count on after this surgery is the flood of hormones. I could just cry over nothing. I miss my baby girl SOOO MUCH it physically hurts (or is that actually real pain from the actual surgery who knows ......who cares) I didnt think Id miss her as much as I do but then I didnt realise SHE Was gonna be gone as long too. I am about to plan a pure mutiny if my hubby doesnt commit to sooner than Saturday to go get her, Im thinking Thursday maybe wed, he keeps getting later in the week. This is his vacation time he is taking so I know he needs some recoup time as well. I did get up more today and do a little more today than I have been doing and I figure I will feel the remifications of that tomorrow. I havnt taken pain meds in a while like a long while today. WE are MAKING PROGRESS PEOPLE! I got in the mail some coool heidi swapp stuff today from the scrapbook fairy THANK YOU SCRAPBOOK FAIRY (your welcome nancy) (since I got no flowers in the hospital thi swill do, thank you honey) I love it it is beautiful.
I got the chipboard clocks in pink and brown, the big and little assorted flowers, bling iron on words (they are so stinkin cute) and some rub ons and the chipboard tags and other stuff that rocks I got the autumn leaves rhonna farrer stamps the fluerishes (love those) and alot of lil davis paints and dazzle what every girl needs to bling any project. I got some older lil davis things that were on clearance for little of NOTHING for Christmas pages Im working on (when I get to) and for cards. I will take a photo and let yall drool with me, NEXT purchase is that my minds eye bohemian line OMG and the urban lilly YUMMY!!! ANDREA is going to get me in big trouble mister I must get well and get some fundage for my projects. WEll that is all for today. I figure hubby can blow money on cigarettes to kill himself with I can at least spend on something to preserve his memory so the blonde child will know who he is. Until tomorrow muuuah

Land of the living

AHHH to be a part of the land of the living... did anyone catch the plates on that bus that ran over me????
I actually do feel better. I can swallow without screaming. I can sit up without praying for death. My neck still looks like I was in some horrid sky diving accident (that is my story and im stickin to it.... sounds so much more interesting than oh they screwed up my neck during surgery doesn't it?Oh well we will have to go with the real deal no matter how boring sorry..) I just ate real food for the first time in a week never thought I would appreciate grilled cheese toast that way. I am certain it won't be long now I will be back at the scrapping world cuz gosh I need to I have projects laughing at me from down the hallway. Deadlines are flying towards me and here I lay..... I will be glad once this is all healed and life can get back to normal. Im tired of REALLY bad television . ITS amazing that we have so many channels and still nothing to watch. As soon as I can stand up without the world spinning out of control and my fever gets back down to normal I can get back to my life. I miss my baby so bad I know she is wondering what is going on and why she cant see her mommy. Who am I kidding she is probably so rotten by now she stinks. she is playing with AUNT BIZ (aunt liz) and following Nana around like a puppy dog. WEll I am going to lay back down and do what I have been doing well, sleep and sweat. LOVIN those hormones huh.

counting on down

Well Im counting it down... In just over 13 hours from now.... the big cut! Im excited but sad, anxious and nervous and ready to get it over with. Then recovery ahhh the week of boredom. YOu can check on http://justjeanne.blogspot.com/ and she will post updates after the surgery. Then when I am able to get online I can tell you how much more wonderful I feel.

the countdown is on..

Bella has gone to her "Aunt Wiz's hoyews" (how she says it) she was so excited. Here she is getting ready love that wrinkly nose.
I was going to work in my scrap room, organizing today and getting projects finished but woke up to a nasty headache and nauseau. Hubby wanted me to ride with him to Mississippi to take Bella, and I ussually don't pass up the chance since there are some awesome scrapbook stores up there, but my rear didnt feel that those rough roads for 3 hours one way and coming back tonight would work esp since I wasnt feeling well. So instead I have held the bed down once again. This elsucko's but I KNOW soon I will feel like a million dollars and be scrappin like a mad woman. So have a good saturday and dont forget to brush your teeth. (Bella's parting words when she left this morning lol I tell her that every morning before she leaves so I told her 5 times since she was going to be at Aunt liz's all week. I got 5 hugs and kisses too and a couple extra just cuz!)

the countdown is on..

Bella has gone to her "Aunt Wiz's hoyews" (how she says it) she was so excited. Here she is getting ready love that wrinkly nose.
I was going to work in my scrap room, organizing today and getting projects finished but woke up to a nasty headache and nauseau. Hubby wanted me to ride with him to Mississippi to take Bella, and I ussually don't pass up the chance since there are some awesome scrapbook stores up there, but my rear didnt feel that those rough roads for 3 hours one way and coming back tonight would work esp since I wasnt feeling well. So instead I have held the bed down once again. This elsucko's but I KNOW soon I will feel like a million dollars and be scrappin like a mad woman. So have a good saturday and dont forget to brush your teeth. (Bella's parting words when she left this morning lol I tell her that every morning before she leaves so I told her 5 times since she was going to be at Aunt liz's all week. I got 5 hugs and kisses too and a couple extra just cuz!)

OH MY GAWESH

Jeanne Inspired me so much with her page she did I had to do one too. I love this technique so much but I DONT THINK I WILL be doing alot of them since it hurts ya hands so much ahahahaha
I am so JEALIN OVER JEANNE'S stash and hanging out with DONNA TODAY! Man none of the cool people ever come down here! REckon Im gonna just have to come to them!! LOVIN that cosmo cricket wanted to jump through the phone and snatch those flourishes up from her too! Check out her photos and stash on her blog (its the crossroads ~~~~~~~~>over there under my blog links.) THey looked like they had soooo much fun! SO while the dr is sawing me in half I will be dreaming about all the beautiful goodies she is sitting there scrapping with... ::Insert the sad violin music here:: NO it is ok that I will not be able to scrap and suffer in silence I will put my adhesive under my pillow so I will ahve sweet dreams while they RIP OUT MY INNARDS.... ::harp soloist plays here:: its ok I will manage I know I will survive and scrap again ::overture with flutes in the background resumes:: I know this will not keep ....::music halts:: OK OK YEAH I KNOW ABOUT MY DOG STORY I WROTE IT REMEMBER. hahahahah Just pokin a little fun at ya Jeans!! I cannot WAIT to see what you create with it and say Hi to DONNA for me I have SO scraplifted I mean used her books for inspiration a million times She rocks big time! OK I need to go see if these pizza rolls have anything Im allergic to in them Hubby had a cheesy grin when he served them to me. hehahaha. HAVE FUN!! KEEP SCRAPPIN or as bella says DEEP CRAPPIN!

OH YESSS!

I get to the dr today for all the preliminary stuffs and we are going over my list of questions I got from the site Elise gave me THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THAT it really helped called www.hystersisters.com and come to find out.. he pulls up my pap results AND THEY WERE NORMAL. THE LAB called me by accident AND IT WASNT EVEN THEIR LAB! IT was a mere coincidence that I had been to the gyno in the last few weeks WAS REALLY WEIRD. HE said OUR OFFICE calls NOT A LAB. I said well they said it was labtech or lab corb or corp with my results from my pabst smear and the results were abnormal I need to follow up with my ob/gyn His face fell he said NO NONONONO that wsa not us and he went over ita lla gain. SO THANK YOU GOD THAT wasnt me but I feel so sorry for the person that it was for that thinks they have a normal one and didnt receive that call they should have received. That is scary. SO that was my good news for today. Im anxious and ready to get this over with!

Amazing what a haircut can do for ya!

It is simply amazing just how much a haircut can make you feel better. I think I lost at least 5 lbs. Melissa swears my hair is coming back in THICKER than it did in the first place after I had those chemo treatments last year. Mind you THEY were NOTHING compared to what Cancer patients have to take this was a 1/4 dose maybe if that much equivelant. We looked back in the side effects and hair loss is a major one along with shingles and pneumonia WELL DUHHH. I guess the good lord blessed me with a HUGE amount of hair cuz mine didnt fall out like alot of other people i have talked to or we didn't notice because I have so much hair.... OH BUT NO I DID have shingles 3 times... TWICE on one side even. IT WAS CRAZY. My dr just shook his head. His carnote loves me. I just took my last dose of valtrex that is what made me think of it and the fact I got a hair cut..
I also got my eyebrows ripped out. AMazing how that makes you look so much better.. besides the fact I have these two HUGE equal signs that are red on my forehead..and on my eyelids but then again, I was starting to look like BERT on sesame' street so It was pretty painful. Melissa went on and on about how thick Bellas hair was. She was blessed with a GORGEOUS head of hair. BUT then again John and I both have thick thick hair as well. Poor kid she will know the term texturize before she is 4 years old.
We went to target afterwards. I was exhausted but I had to get some more of those blame mattress pads as I call them. GOOD LORD I think I will bleed to death before we get all this done. Not to mention my ice cream habit ( I REALLY GOT TO GET OVER THAT ONE) I am hearing others mention as well when they had cysts and endo and all this crapp I have, that they had severe cravings as well so I DONT feel quite as bad. I have been dying for ice cream with that topping that hardens when you pour it on.. NOT JUST chocolate but the as bella calls it CARMAMEYULL too. We have to have both cuz we are GIYULLS (girls) she is such a mess. I have been needing chocolate in the worse way to the point I would cry I needed it so bad. That is just sad. Well that is all for today. I got my viewpoints in tonight so Im working on that so maybe at least one project out of the way before I get the big cut. OH AND YOU WILL BE HAPPY TO NOTE I FINALLY GOT SOME ADHESIVE whehwhehww!! (pause for applause)

Sorry no major words of wisdom for tonight.. except for one...you didnt think I was gonna let you out of this without SOME kinda wise crack did you? I thought not! I will let Mr Mark Twain close my blog thoughts for tonight with this: NOISE proves NOTHING... Often a hen who has merely laid an egg cackles as if she has laid an asteroid.... I will leave you alone to think on that one a minute... IT will come to you I promise ::wink::
See you tomorrow

Misery? Table for one?

AHHHh its finally here. WE got "THE DATE" the date that is THE date that will end all doubt if there will ever be another child in our future. I KNOW I KNOW what a silly thing to be contemplating right now with all I have wrong but .. Its so FINAL. The dr said IF your going to have more children NOW is the time. He gets back my labs... says OK you need a hysterectomy. Stage 4 endometriosis and precancer cells on the uterus... WoW.
You know this is something you think about all your life every month when you have to deal with "mr monthly" and all its horriblness. You wish you didnt have to do this or why cant I just have a hysterectomy...Man sometimes I wanna pick a bone with Eve when I get up to the gate at the garden of eden ya know.
It is part of what makes us a woman. It is what enables us to bring that sweet baby home from the hospital. I know this is the best thing and actually it is the ONLY thing that there is to do at this point. Not only will my over all health be better but it could actually end up saving my life depending on how bad it is when they get in there. But also this is supposed to keep my lupus in remission. THe study says my hormone levels are all out of whack (nooo you must be kidding me) and that it could be the end to medication and so many other horrors in my life. IT could be over. Wow... over. IT will be over. IT will be a new aspect of living It will be a new adventure it will be no more oh GOsh what is today's date.. do I have female products.. did I wait the appropriate 15 minutes before I jumped my hubby's bones... No more every month going please please no lord please I can't be pregnant Or oh please please please lord just let that stick turn blue. No more possibility. BUT so much freedom. No more wondering, No more fear of that pabst smear result saying what we now know to be true. abnormal results What is that about anyway.... PRE cancer cells of the uterus.... I feel like it is the marcing band coming up the road before th e the freak show. BUT ....NO more laying on the heating pad for days as I watch my little angel playing in my make up and feeling so crappy I dont even care that it was the last of my "good kind"
But add being able to play chase with my 3 year old.. to go to the park.. to go to the zoo OH TO go to the BEACH oh I wanna go with her to the beach... in the SUN and not worry about remissions and flare ups. So much of my life is passing me by right here in this bed wishing. I have this beautiful precious little girl GOd gave me this... why?! would I even think he wouldnt let this heal me? So ABOVE everything else I can be what I have wanted my entire life to be and not just normal I mean im so far past normal Im over that already.. but that is to be best wife and mommy in the whole wide world to the ones that I love more than life itself. My little girl and the man that gave her to me.
I want to be the best friend I can be to my friends. I want to be there for them as they are for me right now as Im going through all this. TO some this may seem like OH nothing "you will be fine my dear aunt so and so had this and that and blah blah" WELL let me tell you LET THEM PULL THAT KNIFE OUT AND AIM IT AT YOUR OVARIES and TELL ME YOU DONT RETHINK SOME CRAPP KWIM???!!! It will make you look at all the snarky, philosophical bs that goes on in blogs and the internet world and go Man get off your nail. People get upset and over react for many a reason but ya know in the grand scheme of things when it comes down to it just talking to the other person and not jumping to conclusions can mend many a broken heart if your strong enough to do it. IT takes a STRONG person to humble and try to mend a fence. ANd sometimes even worse if you see two people who were the best of friends and now they are at each others throats over a misunderstanding, you say something thinking it will make the person rethink their stance or at least talk to the other one and the person goes off into haitas again.. SO do you say omg get mad and reply with something worse, pray hard for this person cuz GOD KNOWS if this is their attitude they have in life THEY NEED all the good lords help they can get. Or try to convince them that ya know THERE ARE WORSE THINGS in the world. There are people out there fighting to stay alive that could give a crapp that you got your feelings hurt even though it means everything in the world to you right this second JUST like all I think of is having this surgery right now and staring at sad possibilities ,ANd if that doesnt make enough sense to you LET me break this down for you.

My favorite southern story My grandma used to tell us. ITS about this DOG layin' on a nail. THe dog just HOWWWLLLS and HOWLLLS and whines all day everyone walks by the dog and pats it on the head. finally someone asks the old man sitting on the porch whats wrong with that there dog why does he yawl like that all the time. THe old man replies OH he would feel fine if he just got up off that nail he is layin on.. BUT if he did get off his nail a whole lot less people would pat him on his mangey head. DO I NEED TO EXPLAIN the Moral of that storY? IF your a little slowit means QUIT YOUR WHINing and get off the nail already. PEople get tired of hearing anyone whine. Nothing is going to be solved while your still layin on that nail. Unless the company that YOU keep LOVES misery. DING DING... Your table is ready.

I wanted to give a shout out today to the muse girls, Thank you for raising my stats today!

In other news still calling insurance company today. IT Is to the point of ridiculous. John called and they told him a completely different story they dont know why there is a 500.00 difference..... SO he is going to call the dr office again this afternoon. Maybe he can get somewhere with them. I keep getting the chic's voice mail. I hate that! SO we still don't know anything. I am so ready to get this over with. There are so many other things in life to get on with than to have to fool with such garbage. WEll I am off to go relax a bit before Bella bug comes barrelling in.

check out my pub page

Check out www.scrapstreet.com and see if you recognise a cute little girl on page 2 swimming :)
I have several toots to come up later (is that not THE MOST EXCITING THING TO SAY!!) I am up to number 6 in the last few weeks!!!! WHO would have ever thought!! (not me) Ok I will try to contain my excitment! Im ready for the goods to start rollin in AINT Nothin better than gettin box's of goodies. Stupid med is having adverse reaction and Im wired to the gill.. HOW much does that el sucko.

So what are you doing right now? Besides reading my boring blog? HUH HUH? shouldn't you be working or something? That is ok I am happy you are here reading this. So now get up and do the happy dance with me WHEHWHEHEW I got pub'd I hope hope hope I can get out today (I still need that dang adhesive) Hubby laughed when I asked him to go by and pick it up. So I guess I will just have to keep using this crappy kind until I feel well enough to get out. ::sigh:: that is ok I bet I can get it online and have them shipt it (LIGHTBULB) I KNOW I can order it online and have them ship it WHY DIDNT I THINK OF THAT! YOU are so smart THANKS! ciao~

borrrrrrinnnnggggggg

I AM SOOOOOO FRIGGIN BOREDDDDDDDDDDDD! but I can say WOW I have more toots rolling in. SO exciting to see! I will tell you more about that later I am so excited I needed some good news today!
On the homefront I have held my bed down all day today I still feel burning in my arms from the meds they gave me. Every time I get up hubby shoves another pill in my mouth and says go back to bed. GEE aint he sweet lol WEll the dr said more rest the better and the less active I am maybe it will stop the bleeding. IM so ready to get this over with but every time I look up they keep saying OH we have to do this and this im like OK ALREADY hook up the hoover grab your exacto and lets do this! NO time like the present. I mean geez! Im ready to do it myself people!!! I want to scrap I want to feel better so lets get on with this. I have so many t hings waiting to get done until after this so Im just anxious Oh yeah did I mention patience is not one of my great attributes? ::sigh::

YIPPEE

WELLLllll I emailed back and forth with "legacy" magazine all day friday..... I can still do it . Here is what she said when I explained I wouldn't be able to do it since I made the tray for another publication :


Hi Nancy,We are actually interested in the tray for next year’s issue of Somerset Home. Since we have a few months, did you want to create one especially for the issue?Best regards,Rebecca Ittner



Well I was like HECK YEAH! SOOO I think IM just going to send this one to them after I am done with all the current stuff and then send it to them. THEN if I want to do them as Christmas gifts I can make another one. Sooo I am excited again. We emailed back and forth she wants one identicle to this one I said no problem how many ya need!

SO anyway I got all my deadlines done for Scrappy chic magazine. I did an extra one this time after my friend Jeanne ::waving HI JEANNE:: so inpired me by her friend Carole's blog OMGawesh this chic is amazing! So then I go and see what Jeanne did (see her blog its called crossroads under my links) and I was like hmm I wanna try that. SO I did one too. I cant show you yet I have to wait to see if Scrappy chick picks it up. IF SO then you can see it there if not I will post it. She has some amazing submissions so I doubt mine will get picked. My husband wasnt crazy about it. He said he didnt get the entire concept of the 3 dimensional. He was in a crabby mood today so I dunno if he REALLY didnt like it or was just being crabby. Regardless he later said He could tell I put alot of work into it and I did good he thought... he just didn't care for that style...it was too something he just didnt know what... I tried to explain to him about trends and style and well anyway sometimes You just dont like it. No biggie.
OK so I have a new respect for people that do all that cutting out I could hardly bend my fingers this morning lol
I am ready to get on my projects for AUgust. IT will be a rough month for me with the surgery and all so I want to get them done and over just in case. I have rotation for the view on Untamed this time as well so I have articles to write and pages to finish for them. I have alot to do on that. I have been so busy with getting these done I havnt done much other but it is over. Im trying to get everything in order so when I do the surgery things will run smooth (great theory huh hahaha) Hard to do when you feel crappy. I laid on the heating pad most of today. I did watch flightplan tonight Omgawesh thatwas a freaky movie I was like GO JODIE slam him! I normally dont watch those kinds of movies. But it was good. I will leave Bella home if I ever fly! I wanna go to church in the morning but still running temp. I almost cried. IM SO SICK OF THIS HOUSE!!!! John said he would drive me down to the beach to look if I wanted. I just stared at him. He knows Im miserable. I feel like a fat slob right now and look like the michelon man on steroids. I need a hair cut and I cant fit into my clothes. MISERABLE. BUT THis too shall pass (I keep saying that) Well that is all she wrote for today. Bella has been so cute on the computer. She calls it the BIG POOTER. She did sing 5 little monkeys today for Jeanne. and some other song I have no clue what she was jabbering. She gets her own language going. Anyway take care and rest well tomorrow hug your family and tell em ya love em. I sure love mine!

Creating a geek

It was bound to happen. We are a internet connected family. We have family all over these here united states and we knew it was coming sooner or later. We would welcome our mini member of the geek squad. Well It is official. She heard YOU'VE got mail and she was so excited. Her favorite thing to do is go to playhouse disney and play the games. We constantly hear NO BEDDA DUDE IT! she wants us to show her NOTHING she does everthing my by self. we have officially created a geek!

WELL who woulda ever thunk it!

I am in a state of shock yall! I got this rockin letter from legacy magazine. Seems SOMEONE sent a tray that I made to them for a submission for me and THEY WANT IT. (no Im not mad at you for doing that it was really sweet and I thank you for it) Yeah, Imagine my total shock when I got the letter. Now, My dilema is: I made the tray for another site that I am a designer for. SOOO of course my first obligation is to them. BUT, can you imagine. Here I am a nobody and all of a sudden I have a piece that 2 places want!! (where is my mouth hanging open like a fly catcher blinkie at?) I woulda never thunk it! Not in a million years. I guess the honor alone is at least kill over(shocking) to me. SO I sent a reply back to legacy and told them my dilema and that I appreciate the offer but since I had made the item for a specific task on a site that I am a designer for I have my first obligation with them. I NEVER IN A KABILLION years thougth I would be turning down A MAGAZINE TO PUBLISH MY WORK.... WHAT IS THE WORLD COMING TOO. It will end tomorrow IM TELLING YOU GUYS! I am on such a roll right now I PRAY I never get off this roller coaster. My sister in law keeps telling me it is Karma and it is my turn. wow. I think it is amazing. You never know.. Legacy may want it bad enough to wait a while for it.. we will see what they sayor if they even reply. I need to get going on another design team. I put in for bliss but IM not gonna hold my breath. THERE ARE SOME AMAZING people, big time pub'd, people applying there and I doubt they are gonna pass them up! BUT, I need the challenge of it, and it is another rockin place. I don't wanna over extend but I do so much better when I have tasks and deadlines. (and cool product to work with) I LOVE being a designer for scrappy chick and so excited and honored to do it! AWESOME people there amazing talent I feel like a crayon at a oil paint convention compared to those ladies omg they are amazing! BUT, IT helps having the deadlines and the tasks. I need the excitement and I need to scrap. I get out of my box more and make myself do things I wouldnt normally do. It keeps my mind busy and my hands working. What about you? what helps you get going on scrapping? WHat makes you get things done?
I know I have alot coming up though health wise but man I can sit in bed with the lap top and post away. There is so much more to being ona design team than posting layouts. It is chatting with others. Making people feel welcomed and comfortable somewhere they can hang out find a friend to scrap with. I bet there are lots of scrappers out there like me that suffer from ailments that don't getout and scrap that often at crops etc and they LOVE the online life of being able to interact at will with other scrappers! I LOVE it and I can scrap in my pj's and not worry about my hair rofl! I mean my gosh nat'l sb day I scrapped from bed with shingles ROFL... (can you say I LOOKED LIKE QUASSIMOTTO FROM HUNCHBACK!) Now that is a true scrapbooker my friend!!!
Meanwhile. I HAVE a HUGE to do list tomorrow. I MUST go to hobby lobby I have like a tiny tiny bit of adhesive left and it is getting serious (the fact they have a 40% off coupon helps loads too haha esp with John keeping me on the we aint got no money diet I mean budget ) I have to get this card box (see previous posts) to shannon's mom. (yall pray for her as she is undergoing her treatments for cancer she is feeling really icky right now and in the hospital. I have to call the dr office about my surgery to find out what progress was made with the insurance company and if my records made it there yet. Bella has school tomorrow because it is show and tell/pajama day and she sooo wants to go. I was gonna keep her with me but we decided she could go for most of the day. I have another project I need to work on anyway. I hope I am not forgettting anything I need to get my planner finished so I can have my list made out. I DO SO Much better with a list. what about you? DO You make lists? ( I love marking off tasks accomplished how much does that rock!!) I did catch up on my posting at www.scrapthatmoment.com tonight. Now I gotta go catch up the others! I NEED A HAIR CUT IN THE MOST HORRIBLE WAY. It is growing all catawompas in from when I had to take that chemotherapy treatment back last year and is still all growing back in and stuff it really didnt fall out much just broke off and looked eww but it is growing back different lengths.. is freaky and sticking up like a rooster on crack right now. well Im off.. to go read this letter from legacy one more time but beam at knowing im gonna have the piece published in Scrappychick (if yall havent seen that magazine you MUST see it at www.scrappychick.com they are the ROCKINEST Chicks I have ever met! I also have a pub in www.scrapstreet.com magazine in august I still dont know who made cover yet but she told me I was in a running for it so Im like flippin excited for that! I am diva of the month at www.untamedscrapper.com you will see my smilin face on the COVER of THE VIEW there this month stop bye and wave at us! I have an article that will go in next months view there also... still have the Hobby lobby pub coming up too with an older layout of Bella at the pumpkin patch SO GOOD THINGS are happnin' here! I am living proof you guys NEVER EVER GIVE UP! keep posting keep creating and if you really have it in your heart and it is what the good lord wants you to do THERE WILL BE A WAY! He is throwin doors open all over the place at me right now with HUGE BLINKIN LIGHTS saying HELLOOO ENTER HERE!!!!! I just gotta get off my butt and stagger through it!

lemme see your WHUUUUUUUAHHHT?

OK so THIS PAGE HAD TO BE DONE. I saw this rapper dude (sorry If I am not hip enough to remember dudes name) on a talk show as I was changing channels. I swore the dude was saying LET ME SEE YOUR GRILL. I busted out laughing I was like WHy the heck does he wanna see someone bar b que.. Ok sorry I know I KNOW I am so NOT a hip hop up with the or down with the what the heck ever stuff. Well I watch the segment because I was so intrigued on why the world someone would write an entire song about wanting to look at someone s grill. THe dude explains it and shows the thing On his TEETH (yes people his teeth) and I was like OHHH well THAT MAKES SOOO MUCH more SENSE to me NOWWWWWww! :;insert extremely sarcastic eyeroll here::: I thought it would be on something that was SO MUCH MORE lame than Putting something shingy on your teeth for DECORATION... HOW UNHIP of me to think.. whatever ok... SO I go around singing Lemme see your BAR BE QUE GRILLLLLLL (huge southern accent added) and lemme see yourrrrrr NEW car GRILL for days. Driving everyone nuts (as I do so well) so I had to do this page. IF for no other reason than to aggravate my husband (hi honey muahhh lu ya) so anywayyy I figured since dudes teeth were so blingy why not bling my grill. The photo didnt do real well but anyway here she is: My hubbys Grill ( ask him about the 15 minute assembly the box said was required bwwwaahhhhahahaa NOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTT more like 2 hours) anyway that is the second page to come after I get over this one.

If you havn't figured out yet.. I cannot sleep tonight. I drank about 2 oz of sweet tea to take my night time medications with (yes my small meal in a little cup) I see dollar signs every time I swallow that handfull. That which will not kill me will make me.... CHOKE CUZ IT cost too much to live GOOD GRACIOUS!! ok so that also is another story entirely anyway. SO I havn't had any caffeine in a long time so Me + caffeine = AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I am high enough off life but add a dash of caffeine in the mix and oh boy (you get layouts with HUGE shiny letters on them after rap songs that I have no clue what they are referring to) I am sure we will look back in several years on this page and laugh cuz sir mix a snoop dogz alot or whoever that sings that song, I'M SURE, is SOOoo not impressed with my rendition (witha southern twang added) SO now every time yall hear that song (which knowin all yall it will be alot cuz you are all hip hop enthusiasts and listen to that kind of music HA!) You will think lovingly and reverently of me( dancing around pestering people to see them bar b cue me some CHIKunNNN!) NIGHT!

YOU MUST BE KIDDING ME

WILL IT EVER END!!!! I have a dadgum abcess in my back top tooth in between two teeth. seems there was a crack in it and something got in it and it got infected. SOOOO now they want to get the infection out before doing surgery cuz if the abcess leaks and gets in the blood stream while under this anesthesia it can cause a heart attack (that is the most severe there are other minor things that could happen but this is me we are talking about Id probly fall out and just ALMOST die and be a vegetable the rest of my life.. like bob the tomatoe but not as animated. SOOOO here we go again. The insurance company is giving us the run around they want to do the surgery at SPringhill (duh?) because it is cheaper.... HUH? Yeah I wanna save money but ughmm not on surgery is where I wanna cut a corner ok!!! All my "ologist" are at Providence, NOW wouldn't it make sense to have the surgery there where everyone is located? HELLOOOO makes you wonder if there are any lights on upstairs!! GEEZ. SOOooo anyway.
Finishing up my projects for Scrappychic magazine (www.scrapthatmoment.com) hopefully mine will get picked (I hope so Im driving myself to the brink of insanity over them) so we will see. You should go check em out they have a BEAUTIFUL top notch site going on. Im honored to be a designer for them. OK I gotta go cook Bella some "chick Al aye" (she calls all chicken nuggets chick fil a) and PRAY TO GOD she takes a nap cuz I sure need one. MUUUAAAAHHH and OH by the way. HUGE shout out to jeanne today HOPE your feeling better my friend and your jaws arent hurting. just bite the bullet and get it done.. You will feel better in the long run I KNOW it stinks right now but hey you can call me we can cry together rofl!

Miss susie Q tagged me again!

100 silly questionsHere are my answers to my 100 silly questions. I tag scraptomylu and teri lynne and lissa and beth to do it next (heheheeh dont yall love me)


:1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?How would I know? Im asleep...
2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?YUP
3. Have you ever 'done it' in a hotel room? well yeah duhhh.
4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before?NO but been in the car with someone that did.
5. Do you like to use post-it notes?Yep sure do
6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?Sometimes
7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?Neither
9. Do you always smile for pictures?depends (hey what happned to number 8 isnt this 99 questions now?)
10. What is your biggest pet peeve?ughm questionaires, no im kidding! snarky people and mean people
11. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?Out hubby has big feet.
12. Do you ever count your steps when you walk?depends
13. Have you ever peed in the woods?Yup
14. Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing?Yes, don't you hear my neighbors laughing
15. Do you chew your pens and pencils?NO
16. How many times have you scrapbooked this week?3 to 4 times
17. Do you like popcorn from those big tins?No it is always stale and gross
18. What is your "Song of the week"? Little rabbit fu fu.. bella is stuck on that one (now i cant get it out of my dadgum head.)
19. Is it okay for guys to wear pink?depends on the guy2
0. Do you still watch cartoons?Yes
21. Whats your favorite scary movie?none they are all dumb
22. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?why would I tell you that? You would just come get it and it wouldnt be hidden anymore you think Im stupid or what? (don't answer that)
23. What do you drink with dinner?Usuallysweet Tea until dr said I cant have it so water
24. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?honey mustard
25. What is your favorite food?Tijuana flats
!26. What movies could you watch over and over and still love?Baby Boom, men in black, one crazy summer
27. Last person you kissed/kissed youMyhubby
28. Were you ever a boy/girl scout?yes
29. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?NOT on purpose but then again why would they ask unles it was one of those magazines saying YOU KNOW YOU NEED PLASTIC SURGERY AND DIET WHEN:
30. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?this morning to my hubby to pick up something at store
31. Can you change the oil on a car?why would you change oil on a car dont you need to be under it?
32. Ever gotten a speeding ticket?Yes
33. Ran out of gas?No
34. Favorite kind of sandwich?tomatoe and bacon
35. Best thing to eat for breakfast?waffles
36. What is your usual bedtime?when i get sleepy
37. Are you lazy?NOT ussually unless I feel bad
38. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for halloween?sure did
40. How many languages can you speak? does interpreting my daughter count? ok 1
41. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?yep
42.Which are better legos or lincoln logs?Leggos
43. Are you stubborn?I refuse to answer and YOU cant make meeee!
44. Who is better...Leno or Letterman?Leno
45. Ever watch soap operas?not on purpose
46. Afraid of heights?Yes
47.When do you sing in the car?All the time
48. Dance in the shower?you think I wanna die? Id bust something
49. Dance in the car?Now how in the ..... I aint even gonna ask
50. Ever used a gun?Yes
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?June
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?mostly
53. Is christmas stressful?Yes but It should not be5
4. Ever eat a pierogie?a what?
55. Favorite type of fruit pie? blackberry
56. Occupations you wanted to be as a child? a fireman, a country music singer, charlies angels, daisy on the dukes of hazard
57. Do you believe in ghosts?No
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?yeah
59. Take a vitamin daily?sometimes
60. Wear slippers?not ussually
61. Wear a bath robe?sometimes
62. What do you wear to bed?PJ's
63. First concert?Charly Mclain
64. Wal-Mart, Target, or K-Mart?Target/walmart
66. Cheetos Or Fritos?cheetos
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?both
68. Ever hear of, "gorp"?No
69. Ever take dance lessons?yup
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?what happened to my current one?????????
71. Can you curl your tongue?yes
72. Ever won a spelling bee?no (ROFL as if you had to ask)
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?yes
74. Own any record albums?Yes
75. Own a record player?Yes
76. Regularly burn incense?No
77. What is your favorite movie?Mcclintock with John wayne
78. Who would you like to see in concert? George strait
79. What was your last concert you saw?George strait
80. Hot tea or cold tea?cold
81.Tea or coffee?Either
82.Favorite kind of cookie?chocloate chip or sugar
83.Can you swim well?Yes
84. Can you hold your breath w/o manually holding your nose?yes
85. Are you patient?Sometimes
86. DJ or band, at a wedding?Neither, it was a piano player
87.Ever won a contest?Yes
88. Ever have plastic surgery?yes (went through a windshiled at 6 months old face first (yeah youw ould think i would look better than this after that many plastic surgerys)
89. Which are better black or green olives?depends on what it is on
90.Can you knit or crochet?nope
91. Best room for a fireplace?livin room
92. DO you want to get married?I already am
93. If married, how long have you been married?8 years
94. Who was your HS crush? Johnny Harrell (I look back now and go ewwww)
95. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?No but I would like too
96. Do you have kids?Yes
97. Do you want kids?No cant have any more
98. Whats your favorite color?Green right now
99. Do you miss anyone right now?Yes my friends my mama and my brother
100. Who do you wanna see right now?Nobody Im in my nightgown with no make up..

and I still say there are only 99 questions lol
That was fun. NOW yall do it!!

When in doubt... wear a life perserver

Have you ever seen that cartoon Garfield and friends. There is a duck on there that always runs around with an intertube on screaming that the sky is falling. Well this was bella today... Minus the sky falling part. Daddy told her she could go swimming IF she would take her nap... she never took her nap. THe picture of her looking out the window was like 8 pm tonight she still had hopes of swimming. NOT! Besides the fact her pool is less than 2 foot deep but she needed the zoe swim float regardless. I had to take these pictures they so reminded me of that character (I cannot remember his name to save me right now) on Garfield. This so cracked me up with the tinkerbell costume. then the NRA t shirt WHICH is her favorite (good lord) by the way that her papa D got her BEFORE SHE WAS BORN mind you. Another day of fun summer time gone.

On another note: My mother has her eye surgery Tuesday so please remember her in your prayers. Also remember Mrs. Moore with her cancer she is still having problems. I also am having lots of female problems (can hardly wear shorts or anything around my waist it hurts... sorry to complain but, Got a call in to dr office they said it was the tumor not alot we can do until we have the surgery... so anyway I hope tomorrow is pain free for everyone.

Ps: Was the ducks name Roy?