Wahaii Greetings...

OK so she is still a little confused on a few words. We make her sound it out HA WA II and she says it. Then we say ... say Hawaii she says WAHAII. I can
t help but laugh cause it is so darn funny. Y'all know Johns BIG NANA, Aunt and some Uncles still reside in Hawaii. So Nana (John's mother) went to Hawaii to visit and sent/brought back all kinda fun stuff! Bella has been a Hula dancin' maniac. Every time I look up she has some variation of this outfit on. (don't ya just looove the Hannah Montana pj's under it?) I did't get the shot of the cowboy boots oh man that was so funny. Yup she is my child so what do you expect? A hula dancin cowgirl No less!

It was a stormy Friday here yesterday, My hands hurt so bad. I had those heat wraps on them and aspircream and anything else we could find, pain medicine didnt even help. I will be so glad when they get this figured out. THIS weeks dr appt (geez they are every week this month it seems) should shed alot of light. THEY TOOK ENOUGH BLOOD that it should! (we got the bill insert shocked face)
I didn't do any scrappin' I did make a card but it was a complete lift so I didn't even photograph it. I needed something that was pretty and I could make rather quickly for a dear friend who needed a smile and a pick me up.
She knows who she is and that im thinking of her and praying for her! So is Bella bug!

Nothing much going on just boring day by day waiting on dr's. I hope to clean up in here today and scrap (HAHHAHA) HOPEFULLY BElla will PLAY OUTSIDE since it is NOT RAINING AND PRETTY HINT HINT HINT. John said he had outside stuff to do. I said PLEEEAASEEE let her play outside while you are doing it. she has been in this house for a week sick and then it raining.. we are both ready to knock heads!
I know she will be busting at the seams for her Eva to come play hula girl with her. YES we got 2 outfits so they both have one to wear. Bella has tried them both on. she said that the green one fits the best (mmhmm they are the same size??) hahaha she is so funny.

OH OH MY GOSH. I ALMOST FORGOT man IM telling you My spongebob brain.. I forget everything these days. If I DO NOT write it down!! Im worse than that fish on finding nemo.
Treasures to scrap got a new shipment in. THE PLAIN GRUNGEBOARD is here. I know some have been waiting on the plain. you better hurry she said she had sold some already its flyin out. I know she got the new BLUE AWNING by K and CO omgosh that paper is gorgeous. Some more stickles, thickers,acryllic albums, word albums, all kinda stuff. More stuff than I can remember...OH those white pens that I LOVEEEEE, she got some of them .. WAIT LET ME GET ONE then you can have some hehe. TRACY!! I NEED ANOTHER PEN! She is going to get it all added today. she got some of it added last night but had a class so couldnt get it all done. so CHECK Out the NEW PRODUCTS button at TREASURES TO SCRAP. IT is sooo much cheaper than everywhere else!!

a page and just life stuff...

I actually did a page yesterday whooohoooo! It is another blingy page for the scrap your crap challenge.OK OK so I cheated a little bit and didnt use OLD stuff on it. BUT it is stuff I have and I JUST HADDDD to use... doesnt that count???
THis is the Basic grey Sugar line.I used the paper, the rub ons, the buttons all from that line. I used a BUNCH OF bling babeey. I used stickles. I used those cute basic grey sweet font chipboard letters. ( ANOTHER FAVORITE OF MINE YUMMMMM) I used the Bazzill paper flowers and cut them in half and layered them with a basic grey button on top with some sweet little offray ribbon in the button. Everything on the page you can get from Treasures to scrap except the wooden number 4. I got that from A Scrappin friendsy. I just love those little wooden numbers. Ms Jo always has them. I try to put something on my pages to remind me how old she is on the page. ESPECIALLY if I don't do journaling on it. I want to make sure I have it in her right album but also, it gets confusing after a while how old they are!!
The weather is all yuck today,I am becoming a human barometer also.. its freaky. When it is going to rain my hands will swell up and look awful.. IM glad it waited till later in the day to start all that mess so I could get a page done. NOW I need to work on my next challenge.Hopefully this new medicine will help me to do just that!
It feels good to scrap again.
Bella has had the most awful croaky cough. We had been giving her just Over the counter medicine and omgosh it made that child GROW horns and a tail yesterday. We literally fought with her all day long till, well even after she went to bed. I had to keep reminding myself she doesnt feel good. Bless her heart she was so pitiful. She finally stopped the croaky cough into the night.
If she has fever today SHE IS GOIN' TO THE DR, No matter what.
We did have to have the air conditioner fella come yesterday. The starter on it would just wind and wind and never start. oh man that thing needed replaceing. THey cleaned all kinda ewww out of it and even found some D batteries in there.... rofl (no couldnt have been Bella I asked he said no way she could have gotten in there where this was) IT was amazing all the stuff he did man it was purrin like a kitten last night. actually got cold and had to turn it back. He loaded it back up with freon he said that ws about gone too.
SO If you live down here and you KNOW how hot it gets.. YOu might wanna have your a/c looked at before much longer. Just a piece of advice for ya.
Well hopefully the meds will kick in soon and I can get some things done today.
This new medicine has really helped. WHERE HAS THIS STUFF BEEN. It doesnt knock me out or make me wanna drive trucks through stores or anything. It works kinda the same way the other did so we are just gonna monitor but.. hopefully wont make me wacked out nuts like that lyrica did. I know it helps alot of people and all. IT just didnt work for ME.
Here is hoping you have a wonderful day.

conversations with Bella

I have all kinda news, good news sad news and a story from Bella so hang with me for a few.
FIRST. I have a very special request. A VERY DEAR FRIEND OF MINE has just been diagnosed with Breast cancer. I would so appreciate it if you would pray for her and her family. I know she is terrified. I know she reads my blog sometimes too and I want her to know how much we love her and we are praying for her. xoxoxoxox

This part is for family that reads here.. I dunno if yall know it. but Charlies brother Paul had to have a "radical surgery" yesterday for colon cancer. He made it through fine. I did get an email from carla saying he is doing better they did find some spots on his liver that they will have to go back in and take off at a later time though.. THat sounded promising. please keep him in your prayers as well.


I got an email yesterday from SOMERSET HOME, YEAH!! They are (finally) publishing mama's christmas present it should be in their AUGUST edition. I will show you a picture of it when I get it! WHEHEW. I needed some good news. This has been a CRAPPY WEEK!!!

SO HERE IS SOME MORE GOOD NEWS this has been in the making a while also...
IM THE QUEEN OF CRAPP on the SCRAP YOUR CRAP BLOG!!! My pals Greta and SImone had this INGENIUS idea to get you to use up all your stash (so you can buy new stuff hehe) and named it scrap your crap lol
GO PLAY ALONG WITH US. I got to pick the challenge this week and YOU KNOW I PICKED ME SOME BLING! WE are blingin It out in a big way over there! I did a new layout for it but I tell ya.. I was so sick from the new meds they put me on IM surprised it came out looking like anything. I also gave her another blingy page I did for a better example. I Feel a little better today so I might just make another one.
I did another challenge they are gonna put up soon too .. hehehe go greta!! she rocked it! SO GO ON OVER and have fun with me as the QUEEN OF CRAP
Tell em we said hey! WHO KNOWS you may get to have your turn as the queen as well hehehe!

Here is something that will I HOPE make you smile as much as it made me. Yall know I LOVE these little conversations I have with Bella bug. I havent had them as much lately but yesterday we had a golden moment bwahahahaha..We were laying down (supposed to be taking a nap) and Bella propped up on her hands laying on her belly and said. "Mommy! I need to tell you somethin'" thinking this probably will be good, I asked her what it was..
she said "once apony time.. there were three beyars (bears)"
Mommy: "when did you get a pony?'
Bella: "MOMMY! you know thats how the story goes"
Mommy: "Ok.. sorry just checking.."
Bella: "So the three little pigs had 3 houses"
Mommy: " wait a minute where are the 3 bears"
Bella: " what bears?" ::SIGHHH::
Mommy: "YOu said there were three bears"
Bella: "NUGH UGHHH they were pigs mommy DONT you knowd this story!!"
Mommy: " ok.. I was just wondering if the bears were visiting the pigs I need to get the full story here"
Bella: "YOUR NOT paying attention!!"
Mommy: "Ok sorry"
Bella: "SO ANYWAY the big bad wolf came ::very expressive face:: "and he pupped and hupped and blowed da house away"
Mommy: "why did he do that?"
Bella: "Cause he is da big bad wolf mommy, THAT is HIS JOB!!!" ::eyeroll::
Mommy: "So what is the three bears job?"
Bella: ::dropping her head down on the bead in disgust:: "What Beyars?"
Mommy: "The bears at the beginning of this story"
Bella: "YOU and DADDY said there were no beyars in nobil Adabama so I don't have to worry about beyars"
Mommy: "Thats right, you don't"
Bella: ::looks at me with total disgust:: "Im gonna go talk to daddy" ::runs off:

I think it is important to have these little conversations with Bella.. Keeps me giggling anyway.

Well... this just stinks...

I had a dr appt today.. and well the inevitable I guess is here. IM staring at a sheet of paper that says 90% proof positive it is Multiple Sclerosis. They will not start treating it until after I go to UAB for the second opinion in June. I will go back to the Rheumatologist Tuesday of next week to see what he has to say.. if I was mis diagnosed... or if Im just so dang lucky I have both.
Not a good day but.. I will get my big girl pants on in a few and deal with it.

End of the year festivities

Well it is OFFICIAL school is out for the summer. (for the little kids) All of the K groups are out. The rest I think still have 2 weeks maybe?..
Anyway they had a BIG celebration yesterday. There was a train, a water slide a jumpy thing and lots of food. OH and a BIGGGG Mud puddle. (you will see in a minute)


Bella Rode the Train round and round for most of the time she was at the party. She looked at the water slide ONE TIME and said NUGH UGH Im not gettin on there. THe water is all yucky dirty and all the kids were like ants on a mound climbing that thing. She didn't want any part of it. I kinda don't blame her.. haha



I spent alot of time looking for shade. THANK GOD for Mrs Tara and Mrs. Beth and MRS. Johnnie. THey did most of the kid chasing so I sat in shade as we could find it. I didn't get alot of photos. IT was kinda spread out. AND IT WAS HOT. It was early in the morning but still.. IT was hot. IT was over by lunch and I THINK WE ALLLL needed a nap.
We had Pizza brought in for lunch and the parents all brought some goodies to munch on as well.

THis little boy was so stinkin cute. HE had the BEST TIME rollin around and playing in that mud puddle. He laid down in it and did angels like you would do in the snow. I laughed so hard. HE was destressing after a long school year. It was really funny.
Bella and her friends loaded up for One last trip around the parking lot on the train before they had to pack it in. SHe said a tired good bye to her friends until next year.
I think they all had a VERY GOOD TIME. NOW the scrap pages will begin. I have alot to catch up on. THis has WORN ME SLAM OUT I HAVE TO TELL YOU! haha but IM glad I got to go even if it was just for a little while.

Schools OUT for SUMMMERRRR!

Yeah hard to believe isn't it? Feels like they just started 4k. It has been a CAAAARAAAZY year. ONE with alot of wonderful moments and great friends! Bella has had the best time and has had the best teacher. I have to brag on her for a minute though... is it ok? Hope so cause well... Im so proud! She won 2 awards last night at her little program and Graduation. She got STUDENT OF THE YEAR for her outstanding achievement in all subjects and in conduct! (yeah I said CONDUCT and this is MY KID!! I know your shocked. I will pause a second so you can regroup)

She also won the Reading award. All those nights fighting with her, making her read those little booklets are paying off. Phonics are so amazing. It just blows my mind what they are learning so young now.
OK so I am done bragging for now. I was so proud of her though. I tell ya I did break down crying. (Not just the medication Im on either)
I have a very special prayer request. Bella yesterday while we were getting ready for her program said "Mommy! Ethan looked up at the sky and fell down backwards. We hope he hasn't gone to be with the lord." My mouth dropped. I said "Ethan?, Ethan in your class Ethan? The one that was just at your party? ETHAN!!!" she said "Yup, He looked up at the lord and fell over!" she said "He is gonna be ok though, We prayed for him!" HOW SWEET IS THAT? Having so much faith that you KNOW he is going to be ok.. JUST cause you prayed for him. WHat a lesson I needed to learn at that moment. But, at the program they told us that Ethan was having seizures and they were on their way to Birmingham to a specialist as we spoke. The little empty chair right beside Bella just gripped my heart. I was just a crying. Matter of fact Im crying as I type this. So Please say a prayer for Ethan and his family. I can't imagine the fear his parents have right now.

Here are some photos from the program tonight... They did the cutest little poem and rendition of "NOAH'S ARK" (Bella was a cow.) They sang some songs and showed off their addition and phonics skills. HOW CUTE are they!! Jackson is NOAH. HOW CUTE ARE THEY! OH I also have a photo of her teacher with the Album I made. I was so happy that she liked it. I have worked on this book for a few weeks. I still have some pages to put in it from tonight and tomorrow. (we are having a "FUN DAY" so, YUP you will see more photos from that later tomorrow.) The lighting was bad for photos. I didn't want to turn my flash on and distract the kids, They asked us not to. SO forgive the photography but you get the general Idea. Just goes to show I need that SLR camera with the night lens hahhahahahaha... yeah I know 5 year plan.
Here is the whole class you can see it a little better.
There is my Bella bug... I thought she made an adorable little cow.



Here is the entire class. see the little empty chair. Just breaks my heart.


They did sooo good singing.
This is her teacher she is a WONDERFUL woman. SHe has been a blessing to us this year.

Here she is opening the album I made for her. I tell you it was worth all the blood sweat and tears just to see her face when she opened it!

I have some more photos but they didnt turn out that great with the lighting and such. I tried to get each child as they were getting their little diplomas, but some didnt turn out so well. I did get several class photos for the parents that would like a copy I will be glad to email you a copy of the hi resolution photo.

Tomorrow is our Fun day and I PRAY so hard that I can make it through it. I did ok tonight was exhausted when we got home. Tomorrow... is outside. but, I have a chair and spf 50 and an umbrella (I KNOW NERDVILLE USA) but Id rather look like a nerd than be back in the hospital.

Dr appt and some photos

Sorry I haven't updated, havn't felt that great lately. When I have been up I have been working on a project so just haven't been on lately.

I DID have my Rheumatology (lupus dr) appt. yesterday. pretty much all they did was some more tests and talk to me. He said a fancy word like lupus sclerosis which is someone that has lupus and Multiple sclerosis. He said it is rare but possible. He also said I could have been misdiagnosed. But we don't know yet. He said chances are I am in a MILD lupus flare but do have MS because of the brain lesions and spinal lesions, the spinal tap results, blood tests and the muscle weakness.
He was getting all my records and would see me again in 2 weeks (Isnt that what all of them have been saying?) so pretty much we don't know anything. Just a bunch of could Be's like they all have been saying. I just want to feel somewhat normal again. I know when I got home from the dr. I went to bed got up ate supper stayed up for maybe an hour didn't even watch American Idol (yeah that is like some moral crime isn't it. I missed my dude!) went back to bed and just got up at 4 am. Probly about to go back to bed when I finish this post. SO, that tells you I have just been draggin' tired. NOT like I have done anything.

I did take some photos Of Bella riding her big girl bike on Saturday. CHECK OUT THE SHOES haha she got them for Easter.



Hang on Baby!


I will post some pictures of my project soon. I have a stack of circle journals to get out too. Sorry guys Im gettin' to them I promise. Don't give up on me.

Some pages and some plans.

I did some Scrappin' whehew!
I got the glimmer mist in this months kit from Scrapbook Obsessions. Omgosh that stuff is sooo much fun! I sprayed it on the flowers on this layout, as well as on the chipboard letters. IT was a very cool effect. The scan didnt come out good since the layout was lumpy but.. I didnt get to go outside and photo it today.




This I got this month from Treasures to Scrap. This is the Love Elsie Claire paper, and I used the KI LACE cardstock called hearts blushing. It was very fun to work with. She has it for 1.29 a sheet where everyone else has it for 2 bucks plus!!! Yeah I like scrapping but ughmm we got bills to pay so I like to get it cheaper If I can.
Yall know I love that Basic grey font Wilma. I used stickles glitter glue to make it blingy. Yeah she sales that for $1.29 a bottle. Compared to 2.29 other places. SOoooooooooo If your looking for the Love Elsie and Ki lace papers be sure and Check out Treasures to Scrap store. She has everything Cheaper than most places!! 35% cheaper. She just got in all the Fancy pants papers too. ALso I know Animal Crackers from Making memories is on its way too. It should be here this week along with some other cool stuff! That is the CUTEST paper. Have you seen it? OH just wait it is adorable!

I LOVE LOVE this picture of Miss Bella. SHe looks just like her little mischievious self there. ALthough she did need a hair cut in a BAD WAY!!

Bella has been Playing away with her presents she got for her birthday.
She made her own Thank you cards with her new Cuttlekids diecutter that grandma got her. She was so cute making those cards.

Did you watch American Idol tonight? David Cook was rockin the joint! I loved that jacket he had on.. SaNNAZZZY! We have settled in watching Deadliest catch now. OUR OTHER FAVORITE show evah! That show is so addicting! I never though that crab fishing woudl catch my interest but it sure has!
National Scrapbook say is coming up this weekend. WHat are you plans? ARe you scrapping away at a LSS or an ONLINE store? tell me tell me I wanna know what your gonna do. I am probably gonna be glued to my scrap room finishing a special project I am working on. Bellas 4K graduation is NEXT THURSDAY (AHHHHHHHHHHHH!) SO I have got to get this finished! I will show you some highlights when IM done.
Hope you have a great evening!

OH I ALMOST FORGOT!!! KATE tagged me!!

THANK youuu Kate.
ahhhh THANK youuu Kate.
lol. here it is and I will tag some lucky people when Im done

1.Last music you listened to - Daughtry Im goin home (its on my blog)
2.Last thing you watched on TV - Deadliest Catch (its on now)
3.Last movie you saw - we watched "Enchanted" last night.
4.Last book you read - "Tip" Bella's Abecca book she has to read.
5.Last person you spoke to - online? Fran in an I.m. in person? John

6.Last thing you ate - chicken quesadilla
7.Last time you laughed - This morning at Bella and John they both had their arms the same over their head in bed.

8.Last place you visited - The park ... Bella's Birthday.
9.Last website you visited - Old Navy... see if they got fat clothes.

10.Last thing you scrapped/crafted - see above lol

NOW: I TAG: ANNETTE, ANGEL, Di, Jing Jing, and JAN
(yall can thank me later hehe)

ITS A PARTY!

Bella had her birthday party yesterday at the Park. It was a beautiful day sunshiney and blue skies. A GREAT TIME I DO BELIEVE was had by all. She had 8 of her friends from school come celebrate with her. (including her best friend from across the street) She got alot of fun and nice things. NOW we are working on Thank you cards. she did get some of them made ahead of time but we have a few more to do.
As you can see.. She LOVESSS Hannah Montana. (that guitars days are numbered) We thought the headset was just that a headset that she could listen to it and no one else... ughmm NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! ITS A MICROPHONE! Dear Lord help us!
John Has already threatened that it would be an outside toy.. then that it was gonna be Guido's toy. Than that he was gonna pound it upside a tree if she didnt turn the voluem down. It was a fun evening around here.
After her party her best friend Eva Caroline from across the street (she is in the above photos as well) came over and played. They had the BEST TIME breaking in all her new presents.

I hope you all had a lovely Saturday too.

WHEWEW I won a free kit!

This month with Scrapbook Obsessions. IT is their anniversary kit at that. IT is so full of stuff. THis paper is so gorgeous! I hated to cut it. They had a ton of add on's this month to go with it as well.
IF YOU WANT THIS ONE... You better hurry! IT is going like hot cakes. That prima is fine! I LOVE those flowers. In the photo it looks like its just 3 flowers ughmm NO it is 12 of those gorgeous flowers in that box they are just stacked on top of each other so its hard to notice it. I have already done 2 pages today. (that is a record for me) I didnt do really complicated pages today though I was really wanting to dive into that box!


I know it is hard to see but the word sweet is in the back ground paper, I tried to highlight it with some white chalk... you can see it better in person.
Since it is dark I had to scan these, so... they don't always look as good. But, you get the general idea. OK back to scrappin' LOVEEE this kit!!

Trust?

I love this picture of Bella. SHe looks a little nervous but you can see she is trying to understand the whole dynamics of this horse ride. It made me think of the topic I used for this page. TRUST. We are born with it.. but when do we learn NOT to trust? I know.. what a deep subject. YET one that has been on my mind. I want Bella to know TRUST. I want her to face life head on kickin' and screamin'
I want her to TRUST that life is kinda rough but TRUST that it will be ok. No matter what.
I used the scrapworks line called Formal affair. On this. Along with that snazzy little making memories journaling book. I tell ya I have enjoyed that little book so much. It really helps when your like me and can't write worth a flip, It has the little lines to kinda go by.
I used the Tim Holtz Grunge board on it since it had that westerny horsey kinda feel to it. Dont you just love that stuff!!!
I put 4 arrow photo turns in case I dont notice the 4 I put on the side and put it in the wrong album. I always put something on the page to let me know how old she is in the photo. Not sure if yall have ever noticed that or not.

The journaling reads as follows:
Sometimes, no matter how hard life seems, Even when it may be unfair. You have to dig in your heels, hang on to the saddle and just go with the ride. When it is over you may look back and see just how strong you truly are.
love, Mommy

I hope Some day Bella will read this and really take note of it. That yeah life sucks but just dig in hold on and keep goin'

Hope you all have a wonderful day :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELLA!!!

Today is my little bugs birthday! SHe is the big 5 years old.
She took cupcakes to school today to share with her class. she was sooo excited. Her party is going to be on Saturday but had a mini party at her school today.

She has invited everyone she sees to her party on Saturday, Including the staff at Wal-mart, everyone at her school and a few others that were probably reached by phone. She is so excited to be FIVE. She got a big ol box in the mail from Grandma that had some Hannah Montana stuff including a wig (yeah it has been hysterical to play with John looks especially groovy in it HI HONEY!!) hehehehe

I still find it hard to believe she is already five. Seems she was born yesterday. wow how time flies.
In honor of her birthday we will have her favorite meal of "bughsketti" (spaghetti) for supper tonight.
Not like we dont eat that all the time but ... Its her birthday so bughsketti it is.
I think she is gonna be celebrating for several weeks to come. This week I know she is. If we can keep her contained until Saturday we will have accomplished something.
Id like to thank her teacher for sending that blow out horn home with her too, GRRRR, hahahaha

So here is to Bella bug turning Five. I can't wait to see what this year has in store.

Spring Break

Bella had been experiencing her first spring break. SHe loudly announced to us on Sunday evening that she was gonna have the "Best spring break EVAH" so we both looked at each other and said "ok" wondering what that was supposed to mean.
I wasnt sure if she thought maybe it would be like Christmas and be this grand holiday with a parade or something. So I explained to her Spring Break just means you don't go to school next week, You will stay home with Mommy.
Daddy is taking vacation from work, so we will all be at home. SHe jumps up and does a jig... hmmm. Ok (note to self when she becomes a teenager and doesn't want to be seen with us show her this post!!)
SO anyway she has been home all week. I asked her earlier today how her "spring break" was going. Was it the best ever? she said it was pretty good. BUT, Its not over yet she reminded me.
SO I guess tomorrow better stack up to all the other days.

John got her groovy swing set put together and she has put some milage on it so far. She has been an outside lovin' kid all week.
She has been playing on this swing set since before he got it finished put together haha.
She has made sure all of her toys were introduced to it and they got to take a nap in the "club house" on the top.

SHe has helped her daddy pressure wash the house and shed, Paint the outside of the house and shed, and also picked out ALL the accessories we need for her birthday party on the 26th. SHE QUICKLY reminded me that her birthday was before then but we were just gonna have her PARTY on that day.
(as to not confuse me into not getting her an extra present) I explained to her that the big old cool ginormous swing set was her gift, she said OH. Well maybe we will just eat cake. so I think the deal is set.

I had to go on Wednesday to have my tests done. The Evoked response tests also known as "HUMAN TORTURE" and all for the nice round figure of 399.49 cents.
Im sure it cost alot more than that but oh my lord. They could definitly find out anything they had wanted to know if I had the answers with that test IM telling ya! SO needless to say that blew Wednesday for me. I tell ya I do not understand why some of these tests are like the medication... worse than what is originally wrong with you in the first place. IF something WASN'T wrong with you... there will be when they are done I promise you.
I felt really bad for the lady in the next curtain because if she was next..... she was already praying before I left out of there.
I got home and took a LOOOOOOOOONG nap. I was still nauseaus that night. I have been alternating frozen vegetables On my shoulder and arm where she tried to electricute me.
JOhn was so sweet and got me my most favorite thing ever, Uncle bucks beef and cheese with no mushrooms stromboli with the garlic sauce only he forgot the garlic sauce, I was so hungry though I didnt care, it was still good. I scarfed it down. I was about to starve.
wrong move...
sooo this morning I got up still nauseas and had muscle spasms in my arm and neck (where she shot the power of a car battery through my neck shoulder and arm). Took my medicine, Grabbed more frozen veggies out of the freezer and went back to bed.....so there went Thursday also.

IM DONE WITH TESTS THOUGH and don't have to go back to the dr till May 6th which I KNOW isnt far but does sound like a long time off. Just let my brain think that for a little longer anyway. This will be the Rheumatology appt. to decide if this is Lupus doing all this crapp or could it be MS. SO... Im at the point of WHO CARES just fix it.... exhausted tired of tests... tired of feelin like crapp..
so John and Bella have been on their own pretty much. Bella came in tonight and she was SOOOOOOOOOO dirty when she took off her clothes for bathtime, it looked like she still had clothes ON. yeah pretty dirty indeed.SHe has been outside with him step for step so I TOLD HER if I can move tomorrow we would make some cards/thank you notes for her birthday presents she has gotten so far.But if mama still feels crappy we will try our best to do them before the weekend is up. Hopefully we can get that done before the weekend is out. I am really tryin' to drive that home with her that she is to say THANK YOU and write a thank you card when she receives a gift.

I did do some scrapping on Monday I think it was it might have been saturday..I have my days so mixed up now I honestly have no clue when I made this page but it ws recently.
This is Bella and her "boy" Braydan. They are just the cutest things. They don't really have the concept of boy friend girlfriend (THANK GOD) yet but they are best friends and want to play all the time. I asked Bella if Braydan was her boy friend or just a friend that was a boy and she said MAMA isnt that THE SAME THINGG! no foolin her huh?


OH before I forget. I ALSO wanted to let you know Tracy got in a ton of new product in her store at Treasures to Scrap. Yall know IM all about good deals and if you can get the same product( love elsie, Bo Bunny, Fancy Pants, KI Lace Paper, Cosmo Cricket) every one else gets at regular price for a discount.. THEN IM ALL OVER IT! so go check out what she got. EVERYthing EVERYday is 35% below retail. no foolin, it really is. If you have a request for certain product that she doesnt have.. she will do her best to get it also.

I hope everyone has had a great week and that it was the "BEST SPRING BREAK EVAH" for you and yours if you had it ;)

Bella goes International

I had a really good day today. We got Happy mail! One of the pages that is to be published in SCRAPBOOKING MEMORIES The Austrailian magazine that I LOVEEEEEEE! Came today. I am SOOOOO excited and impressed with this magazine. It is full of awesome pages and ideas. Im so used to the American magazines that have alot of ads and not alot of layout in them. This one OMG had a TON OF layouts just pages and pages of JUST layouts. Im so impressed. YES I cant wait to see my other pages in it. Here is the one IM in so you guys (my family I know, My mom especially will go buy tons of copies hahahaa)can see the cover:

The page is shown in the index in teh front of the book and also in the book on page 32 also. JOHNS HAND IS IN THERE rofl. I told him Id make him famous.

hahaha. as if. THis is far from famous but it was a very wonderful happy today, The weather dropped off cold and I have been feelin liek crapp and all blue because I REALLY dont want to do all these tests and all the money we are having to spend. SOmetimes I wonder if it is better not knowing... but I want to be here a long time to see Bella bug grow up so.. .I put on my big girl drawers and go on.

This magazine has 196 pages and A TON OF LAYOUTS IN IT. IM sooo impressed with it. If I didnt have a lifetime subscription to this other magazine I wont say the name of, Id get this one. My mom keeps renewing it for 2 years when they send the little renewal notices. I think I will have that mag till im about 80!!

John got Bellas swing set put together today. It was taking a really long time and John was geting all confused by the numbers. He had written on the boards like the directions said then it just wasnt going together just right... then he noticed... BELLA HAD written some numbers and letters like daddy ON THE OTHER SIDES of them. ROFL sorry hun I had to laugh that was sooo funny but I knwo he was so frustrated.
she is gonna have sooo much fun on that thing. Man I wish i Had one of those when I was a kid!!!

Hope you are having a good week I just had to share my good news with you guys. You can pick up a copy at Borders or a books a million. OR You can always go to their website.

the weekend

I have been scrappin when I have been able to focus. I am almost finished with a mini album. I finished a layout and I had forgotten to post my Di Hickman card sketch card I did last week. Last week was so mentally exhausting. I just was in a daze most of the week. Not hurting so much as having this weakness that feels os weird. Like you have walked a huge marathon how your legs feel all unstable and wonky but I know I havent walked no marathon unless you count from the bed to the bathroom....
ENOUGH whining... IT will work out. I go WEDNESDAY of this week for some test. They are gonna last like 5 hours. They are gonna hook alot of wires to my head to see if I can pick up cable on my eyeballs. I will let ya know how that works out. OH SOME GOOD NEWS! WE got into UAB to the MS specialist. It is not till the end of June but at least we got in. I cannot pronounce his name its alot of vowels. But some that I have talked to have heard of him. That made me feel better. I am still seeing my Rheumatologist on May 6th (lupus dr) so he can decide if he thinks the lesions and deterioration is possibly cns Lupus so they can decide and start treatment this summer. Thank you again for all your prayers. This has been a difficult hurry up and wait that is driving us all crazy. I just would like to be able to focus again and stop this shaking and numbness.

So anyway.. I did scrap.. It is getting better. Im still having troulbe with lines. They will look straight then ughmm they will be so far from straight you cant even call them crooked! They are good fill in pages and great pages for Bellas album but nothing I would consider submitting or using professionally. (if that is what you would even call what I did bwahahaha) Here is a fill-in page I did for Bellas book. I love this picture of her. SHe is such a pistol. She got a big girl bike for Christmas but she hasnt taken to it like she did the trike. I think it is because she doesn't want to wear all the crash gear. They pad these kids now more than demolition derby racers. Its hot and I know that is why she doesnt ride as much. BUT.. she has to wear it. I wouldnt have some of the scars I have if I had worn crash gear growin up. HECK I NEED CRASH GEAR NOW just to walk across the room!!!
I used the new Basic Grey Archaic along with some Basic grey Lucky from an older line. I added the chipboard which is also made by Basic grey. SWEETIE font thats called. The large B is the Basic Grey monograms. I used some assorted Basic Grey buttons. Colorbox inks, Cosmic Cricket ribbon, and Rusty pickle chipboard stars.
You can get all that at the TTS STORE (Treasurestoscrap.com) and at a fraction of the price other places sale it for so head on over. Tell em Bella bug sent ya ha ha.

Here is the card I did last week with my buddy Di's Card sketch.
This is the Reminisce Live out loud line. Has very fun colors. Love this line.

I havn't goten the mini album all ready to upload yet. I will do that in a day or so. IM exhausted. I have been watching the Deadliest catch marathon this weekend. John and Bella were putting her Swing set together she is getting for her Birthday. Well got for her birthday. Have I mentioned she is gonna be 5??? ughhh rips my heart I am tellin ya. She is on Spring Break this week. I think she thinks its a holiday like Christmas. SHe has been running around going "TOMORROW IS SPRING BREAK TOMORROW IS SPRING BREAK!!!" John took this week off since IM still having good and bad days and have my long appt on Wed. He also wants to get some house painting done. Depends on the weather.
He got part of the swing set put together today. He and Bella had a bandaid competition (to see who could come out of it with the most barbie bandaids) I think John is winning bless his heart. I have to say this is a cool swingset. She is gonna have alot of fun with it this summer I hope.
Hope you all have a good week.

EDITED TO ADD DR. VISIT RESULTS

First off I want to thank all of you that have been thinking of us and praying for us. I really do appreciate it. we still don't know a whole lot. It is still a toss up between lupus cns (central nervous system?) and MS. BUT, HE is sending me to Birmingham to a dr at UAB who is the best in the southeast for MS Patients. He is who they send difficult cases to he said. He said he hated to put me on the medication that is 15,000 yes that is THOUSAND a year without them ruling out the lupus causing this. BUT, I tested positive for all the tests they give for MS. I have a Rheumatologist (lupus dr) appt on May 6th for them to look at my tests, and they are tryin to get me into UAB in Birmingham to the MS dude asap.

THe way he explained it to us... my central nervous system, the mylar (?) (I think that is what he called it?) that insulates your nerves... is deteriorating. There is nothing they can do to FIX IT.. but they can slow down the degeneration of it. BUT depending on if the lupus is causing it... that would be a different medication than if it was MS. SO now you know .. what we know. PRetty much not much lol so we are now praying for getting into UAB pretty soon!
I DO KNOW I am exhausted. Physically and mentally so Im gonna go catch a nap.
THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH AGAIN.
love and hugs

Today is the day...

My appt is at 10 am. so Hoping we get good news. I will let yall know what they said when I get home... fingers crossed and praying hard.
in the mean time I tried to scrap some to keep whats left of my brain busy haha.



This is from the Easter Egg Hunt at St Elmo church. BElla had such a great time. IM SOOOOO HAPPY Mrs Gloria invited us. I hated that I was too sick to go. Happy JOhn took lots of Pictures. VERY HAPPY Bella got to go and enjoy herself.

THis is the Basic grey Sultry line. I added an older sheet of Lollipop shoppe that kinda matched it so SEEE IM USING UP MY STASH. making rooom for all the news stuff aren't those little crocheted flowers the cutest? YOu wait when she outgrows those pants... Im sooooo gonna take at least one if not all those off there... I know my mom would flip if she knew I did that but look how stinkin' cute they are and I can put them in her scrapbook and say HEREEE are the flowers that were on those cuteeeee pants grammaw bought you!!! ITS gonna happen you just watch.
These products you can find at the TREASURES TO SCRAP STORE. ANd get this.... THese new basic grey papers... YOU CAN GET THEM 35% cheaper there than ANY PLACE ELSE! so SAVE YOUR MONEY and spend it on scrap stuff that is my motto. Everyone likes a deal so hey... here is a great place to start!!




I will post an edit when I get home to let you know all my test results and what the dr says. Hope you all have a great day.

I got Tagged.

The Six Words memoir.
Here are the rules:
1) Write your own six word memoir
2) Post it on your blog and include a visual illustration if you’d like
3) Link to the person that tagged you in your post, and to the original post if possible so we can track it as it travels across the blogosphere
4) Tag at least five more blogs with links
5) Don’t forget to leave a comment on the tagged blogs with an invitation to play!
OK, here goes:

my pal Angel Tagged me to write my own 6 word Memoir... so ... here goes:

JUST IN CASE TOMORROW NEVER COMES: I know in one way it is kinda morbid to think what tomorrow would be like if you weren't here to see it. On the other hand... do you think about what you want to be your mark.. just in case? I mean I have Bella. She is my heir. she is me carried on. But what about other than that. What mark do we have. I guess that is another reason I scrapbook so much and do so many blog entries. Someday Bella will have the chore or honor not sure which yet of looking back through all of this. Hopefully she will see the love and the heart I put into it. The laughter, the sadness and sometimes loneliness but always honor to be her mom and John's wife. Some people are never content with that. They want to be the bit CEO of some company and want to climb the ladders of success but ya know... this is my success right here. John and Bella are everything in this entire world to me and all that I ever did want. Since I was able to date, all I ever wanted was someone to look at me the way John does. Even on the days when I am so sick and would not think anyone should love me.. he is there. I hope and pray Bella finds someone someday (LONG LONG LONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNG time from now) that looks at her and treats her the way he does me. I am very spoiled and it is mostly his fault. He builds me up to where I need to be on the days I just cant reach it. You all know just how desperately I have always wanted to be a mommy. That dream came true and I love it. Some days I don't feel like a good mommy. I know I never would be the perfect mommy but I think someday when she looks back and knows and sees what we went through for her, To get her here and to stay here to be with her...that is where she knows our love will be. So just in case there is no tomorrow. I hope they know. I pray they know. Im telling them now so they will know. JUST that they are my entire world and every breath I take, every fullness of my heart has their fingerprints all over it and for that I am truly grateful.

SO NOW I TAG: JAN, Tracy, Colette, Cheryl wray, and Lynn

TODAY!!!!

EDITED TO NOTE.. SOrry they just announced that they TAPED IT TODAY.... it wasnt posted today. SORRY. I copied and pasted it from the site but they told them wrong stuff so.. anyway sorry bout that. I will let you know when they have it up for viewing.


LFA Spokesperson Mercedes Yvette and Dr. Gary Gilkeson to Discuss Lupus on ABC News Now on Monday, April 7 at 10:30 a.m. Eastern -
On Monday, April 7 at 10:30 a.m. Eastern time, Mercedes Yvette, Lupus Foundation of America spokesperson and 2004 runner up on America's Next Top Model, and Dr. Gary Gilkeson, chair of the LFA’s Medical-Scientific Advisory Council, will appear on Healthy Life," a regular health segment on ABC News Now.

Mercedes Yvette, who has lupus and who was featured on the Spring 2007 cover of Lupus Now magazine, and Dr. Gilkeson will join Dr. Tim Johnson, the chief medical correspondent for the ABC Television Network, to talk about lupus.

Mercedes will share how lupus has affected her life, and what she is doing as a national spokesperson for the LFA. Dr. Gilkeson will discuss how lupus is diagnosed and treated, and the latest research findings.

Again, the show about lupus will be broadcast live from 10:30 - 11:00 a.m. Eastern time on Monday, April 7. To view it, please visit http://abcnews.go.com/abcnewsnow, and look for "Healthy Life."

ABC News Now is a 24/7 digital cable channel available to more than 34 million users on cable, broadband and on mobile phones.




SO WATCH IT YALL!!!

HURRAY HURRAY its BASIC GREY!

Yes I am just a little tiny bit excited. hehe. Tracy got in the new BASIC GREY in the store and with the every day discount she gives of 35% off, iTs gonna be mine I tell ya, all mine!!! (said in a evil voice) so IF YOU WANT in on it ... you better hurry. She just loaded up the place with my most favorite chipboard letters EVAHHH!
I get emails all the time asking what font that is I am using, and how much they love it. WELL here is your chance. NOT ONLY to get the same letters but to get a screamin' deal on them too! Go ahead and look other places and SEE HOW MUCH THIS STUFF COSTS! yeahhh.. You will be happy your pal Nan here told ya about Treasures To Scrap's discount paper store.
I like to pass along deals I find to my pals and family. Feel free to mention it to your friends as well.
There is also a kickin contest goin on that Cosmo cricket is sponsoring. Check it out: Cosmo Cricket is putting up 300.00 in product as the prize. Yeah so ughmmm. get ya blackboard books out and get to scrappin' my friends.
I would LOVE TO SEE you enter.

Sorry I haven't been updating my blog as much as I ussually do. I am still adjusting to this medication and having spasm issues but, I think it is gonna be ok! THank you all so very very much for all your prayers and emails. I love them and I do thank you so very very much from me and all of my family. Bella is on half days this week they are doing S.A.T.'s in big school. (as she calls it) I have done another layout but it has the kids from her school on it and I don't have permission from all the parents so I haven't posted it. I will get something up though sorry. Thank you all for cheering us on! Without you guys and your prayers and encouragment... I just don't know what we would do. THank you again.
Here is my reason for everything right here!!!

a great surprise today

My bud Simone when she was here, did a video of my scrap room. Well to my surprise she did it all up to music and schtuff (my favorite song by daughtry ughhhmm melt!!) on her blog. GO SEE IT it looks sooo stinkin cool! Thank you Simone Im smiling (crooked but hey im smiling hahahahaha) Love ya tons chick!
check it out HERE

Not a good day....

I had a dr appt this morning and I didnt get good news.
My Gp told me to kinda prepare myself. That I do have lesions on my brain and a postive lumbar puncture. The vasculitis in my brain and that point to what we were hoping not. Multiple sclerosis. The other thing it could be is Lupus nephritis vasculitis which means the lupus has moved to my brain. So. I have an appt, on April 9th that I will get more confirmation and treatment options. I have a new rheumatologist since this one was a nightmare that I will be seeing errrr. first week in May. (its in the kitchen and IM exhausted) Regardless... He told me to prepare myself and whatever questions and alternatives for treatment we can choose. I am not sure what we can do on second opinions (I REALLY DONT WANT TO DO ANOTHER SPINAL TAP) But I did have positive Ana and really high sed rates. I dont know all the counts I didnt write them down I was kinda in a stuper because so many times before they tested me for that and it was always negative. So anyway. that is where we stand right now. I really do appreciate your prayers and thank you so much. I ask right now for you to pray for John and Bella and my family. I think this is alot harder on them than it is on me.
My main concern right now is how this is all gonna effect them.